for my family...

I was reading my friend ia's blog about her mom... her mom passed away 3 years ago on January 28 and you can read from her blog that the emotions are still raw, the feelings will never be gone and it will always seem like yesterday when it happened... she thanked her mom and told her alot of times that she loved her.. I don't think I ever did that with my mom... outgoing as I might be to everybody else I am never comfortable showing my real feelings for all the people who truly are dearest to me...sure I hug her from time to time and thank her for all the things she has done for me and for all the understanding but I always do it without saying it.. i'm a touchy and feel-y person but when it comes to my parents i become shy... i try to mask my affections by jokes and harassing them hehehe.. so here is my tribute to my mom.... my dad and all my brothers...

to my mom...
-thank you for always believing in me
-thank you for always loving me
-thank you for always scolding me kahit matanda na ko, at least i know I have a mom  who cares for me
-thank you for always being there for me, kahit na hindi kita masyado kinakausap
-thank you for always standing up for me, kahit minsan i don't feel like standing up for myself anymore
-thank you for always believing in my skills(which i'm still not sure what they are)
-thank you for all those times you still talked to me after telling me you will never talk to me again in this lifetime
-thank you for letting me stay out late even though I know you get anxious when I leave the house
-thank you for putting up with all my ex-bf's even though some of them weren't even worth it
-thank you for always preparing my food when i first started school up until now before i go to work though sometimes i think you forget me because of the ps2 and all those crochet books i borrowed from the library...
-thank you for putting up with my bitchiness
-thank you for putting up with my tantrums
-thank you for putting up with my ka-sungitan, ka-supladahan and all those other stuff i dare not mention here...
-thank you for raising me to be a God-fearing person, buti na lang d ka gaya nung nanay sa waterboy, lahat devil hahaha...
-thank you for always laughing at my stupid jokes
-thank you for everything...
- i know i don't hug you that much and i don't tell you i love you that much pero alam mo naman un d ba.. I LOVE YOU always.. even though I always knew you wanted to send me to the adoption whenever I was a bitch... too bad they won't take me there hahaha...

for my dad....
-thank you for believing in me
-thank you for loving me
-thank you for brining music into our life
-thank you for always being there for me even though we always have a shouting match
-thank you for standing up for me all the time
-thank you for telling me to dump all those stupid guys whenever they make me cry...
-thank you for taking care of my car, i'm car-deaf, and no i will never ever retain anything in this lifetime that will pertain to cars, car words just escape me, sorry lalake ko dati pero bakla talaga ako e hehehe...
-thank you for bugging me about small stuff, car insurance, taxes, street cleaning parking, and whatever it is you think of when you want to bug me
-thank you for being the number 1 alaskador in our family.. sayo ko nakuha ung pagiging alaskador ko e hehehe... =P
-I LOVE YOU Pa!

for my brothers...
-thank you for always being there for me
-thank you for always reminding me that there are other people in the house because of your big noisy mouths, if only i could gag you and hide you forever..NOT! hahahaha...
-thank you for being pests in my life, at least I know that I am the older sister and you can bug me anytime
-thank you for always emptying my wallet, at least I know I have money and that I can spend it on people I love, just don't do it often enough or I will get back at you when you already have jobs...
-thank you for bothering me and making fun of me most of the time, that's what i treasure most, that is what we will all remember someday when I'm in a wheelchair with you fools pushing me around hahaha...
-thank you for being my brothers and letting me be your older, wiser, more beautiful sister bwhahahahaha, as if you had a choice
-thank you for standing behind me in all the decisions I make, I know I hurt you most when I make wrong ones..sorry
-thank you for fighting with me, at least i can exercise my powers of being older and being always right hahaha...
-someday when you guys are old enough I was planning on having a trip of just us 4, remember i said this ok before i learn to regret it hahaha...i love you guys.. i know you are old enough to cringe when i say that and i know you don't like it when i hug you hehehe.. but i love you.. always..sorry you're stuck with me hhaha....

My new blog site..

I know I still have multiply but I successfully uploaded the friendster blog in here yay.. so there maybe I will now have 2 blogs again.. hehehe..

Next Thing On My List - Jill Smolinski

Florence recommended this book by Jill Smolinski last January and I have finished it since then yet I forgot to blog about it. It is a must read for crazy readers like me. I loved it...

Plot: our main girl June Parker shares a ride with a girl from Weight Watchers named Marissa, they get into an accident and Marissa dies. As June is taking care of all of Marissa's belongings she finds a list in Marissa's purse.. a list of 20 things to do before her bday, and as her guilt nags on her because she lived and Marissa died she tries to get on the task of taking care of the list for Marissa...

The list:
1. Lose 100 pounds
2. Kiss a stranger
3. Change someone's life
4. Wear sexy shoes
5. Run a 5K
6. Dare to go braless
7. Make Buddy Fitch pay
8. Be the hottest girl in Oasis
9. Get on TV
10. Ride a helicopter
11. Pitch an Idea at work
12. Try boogie boarding
13. Eat ice cream in public
14. Go on a blind date
15. Take Mom and Grandma to see Wayne Newton
16. Get a massage
17. Throw away my bathroom scale
18. Watch a sunrise
19. Show my brother how grateful I am for him
20. Make a big donation to charity

I will not tell the story in this blog as it will ruin the purpose of you guys reading it, *hint hint* go to the library if you do not want to buy the book...

This book has inspired me to make a list of my own.. I know my birthday is coming up in almost less than a month and I think it will be unreasonable to start a list at this time when I just have more or less 7 weeks to do whatever it is gonna be on my list... I have a big list of things to do when I am still alive but this is a more realistic day to day basis kind of list, one that is not too outrageous and one that I can achieve given time and perseverance.... ok I was thinking of that kiss a stranger bit but I think given my condition that I have a bf that will not be a good item there.. unless we peg him as a stranger when I first kissed him hahaha... ok so what to put on my list.. hmmmm...