I can't believe

what you love most hurts you more... and most of the time they don't realize they hurt you unless you tell them...

i never thought that this could happen right under my nose.. right when everything seemed so perfect.. right when we had it all figured out... right when i thought nothing can stop us... but as all things are.. this too must come to an end..

   

maybe not really the end but i think it'll take time before what i'm feeling right now will be gone.. by then gone will be what was before... just like any other relationship... we need time apart.. we need to cool off... but cooling off usually does not work for me.. it's yes or no... seldom is there a maybe...

      

i expected too much and i can't understand.. i sometimes think i do but i don't think so.. i believe what you say even though im bleeding and you don't seem to understand me... what i can't understand is that i was here before all this happened.. what happened to us.. i feel abandoned... i feel so alone.. i hear you talking yet i can't see beyond the pain... i don't understand what you are saying..

      

yes i thought we were ok after last night.. i was wrong i had so much more to say... so much more to blurt out but i couldn't... not when it came to us... im still hurting.. and i dont know how to say it...

i hate it that somebody could come between us.. just when i thought we were invincible.. sigh...

    

p.s. im not talking about me and my bf =P

What I did today...

I tasted super glue.. not by choice... but still...

      

i was fixing the front door pergo thingie and i was holding the super glue cap on my mouth (which by the way i thought of already as a bad idea.. but what do i do) and somebody walks by and she wants to come into the office.. yes i talk to her while the cap is stuck between my teeth and in my attempts to clost the super glue so i can talk better while i was stepping on the pergo thingie i put super glue on my lower lip which i thought was ok since i can just go open my mouth and let it dry for awhile and peel it off.. well this wasn't my day to start with so i not only closed my mouth but tried to remove the glue with my tongue.. mwahahaha.. glue on both my lower and upper lip and now my tongue pretty smart huh.. as rinatte said.. "dumb ass"

   

so now i have a sore tongue where i peeled off the super glue and my lips have white on them.. and now it feels like i have glue on my teeth too mwahahaha...

      

super glue does not taste good.. we all know that from the smell... but what the heck i tasted super glue mwahaha...

Puddle Of Grace

Puddle Of Grace
Amy Jo Johnson 

Have you seen yourself today
Could you recognize your face
Can you tell me what to say
Mine's lost without a trace

Mama can you help me please
My hero just stabbed me
With a knife that I did lend
Oh mama who's my friend

Tell me, tell me where do you go when all the diamonds have run dry
Tell me, tell me how do you feel after bittersweet goodbyes

I had almost found my face
I was almost me
But my pride couldn't swallow what I ate
Boy I hope you're happy

Tell me, tell me where do you go when all the diamonds have run dry
Tell me, tell me how do you feel after bittersweet goodbyes

How do you feel when all the diamonds have run dry
How do you feel after bittersweet goodbyes

Today I found my face
Floating in a puddle of grace
A porcelin doll with cracks to mend
Oh mama I found a friend

Oh mama I found a friend
Oh mama I found a friend

MY FIRST EVER CT

Yes Finally I decided to buy my very own Chuck Taylor... and yes I kept putting it off and off and off even though there are sales everywhere.. i think i was waiting for the right shoes.. I found one that I liked before but they didn't have my size.. but now tada... just the perfect color... VIOLET with lavander sides/strips or whatever you call it... yay... I know I'm gonna post a better picture later.. I just wanted to show it off.. yay... I know it's stil a half size bigger but what the hell I don't see this in the malls, or maybe i do but they have black strips/sides along the shoes where the lavander in my shoes are... wahooo... i just need to buy thicker socks mwehehe...