I never imagined that after 5 years of being with someone, I never really knew him.. I am writing this now because I've come to terms about letting go 3 months ago yet it is only now that I am ready to tell everyone my story...
He was just another lying cheating bastard... and I thought I knew him from spending the last 5 years everyday with him.. he was the least likely person I thought would cheat... but as they say silent water runs deep.. no he's not deep, he doesn't have the capacity to be deep hahaha.. am i sarcastic... well he had lots of hangups from the start but i forgave him.. and i let it be.. but this is enough...
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
whatever
whatever path I choose or whatever I may do I hope everyone will forgive me.. I know apologizing too early is a sign of weakness but I apologize to everyone involved and know the situation.. whatever path I may choose.. i'm sorry.. I'm stupid like that..
--- i wrote this on may 15,2008 and i think i chose the right path... thanks for all your help.. it was the easiest thing to do and I couldn't believe it would be that easy.. and after all that's been happening lately.. i'm glad i broke up with him 3 months and a half ago already.. he's a lying bastard like everyone else.. good riddance biatch... and i thought i was doing the wrong thing.. reality bites you in the ass big time..
--- i wrote this on may 15,2008 and i think i chose the right path... thanks for all your help.. it was the easiest thing to do and I couldn't believe it would be that easy.. and after all that's been happening lately.. i'm glad i broke up with him 3 months and a half ago already.. he's a lying bastard like everyone else.. good riddance biatch... and i thought i was doing the wrong thing.. reality bites you in the ass big time..
Saturday, August 23, 2008
I’ve been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I’ve come to believe my souls on the other side.
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.
Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I’ve been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can’t help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe now...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more.
Breathe No More - Evanescence
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
kickin' it back
I'm kickin' it back.. laying down on the ground and letting my hair loose... I want to watch the clouds this weekend.. I wish I could.. maybe I should escape and go to Echo Park.. I miss those days...
Friday, August 8, 2008
never imagined..
I've never been the type of girl everyone notices at a party, never been the popular one coz of my looks which never bothered me.. I'd rather get by with my humor and being the funny one, than the pretty one.. I never considered lathering my face with multitudes of creams, moisturizers and foundations all the days of my life.. maybe once or twice i tried them then i broke out in not only pimples but rashes as well.. so I only paint my face when I go out for gimiks =) syempre klangan maganda din naman ako no hehehe.. hence the multitude freckles and sun spots on my face... yes, i put sunblock on my face, that's the only thing that doesn't give me pimples...
this now brings me to my point.. how did it happen that all of a sudden they are paying attention to me? maybe all the popular girls are either married already or have long time bfs and since I'm not I'm their last chance for at least sanity hahaha...it still amazes me that all these guys are looking at me.. it's weird.. ey i know i'm pretty in my own right.. but not to this level.. i feel like i'm so beautiful.. hmmm did cutting my hair make me more marketable? or is it just that everyone is running out of options and i'm the best catch in the market right now... makes you wonder...
this now brings me to my point.. how did it happen that all of a sudden they are paying attention to me? maybe all the popular girls are either married already or have long time bfs and since I'm not I'm their last chance for at least sanity hahaha...it still amazes me that all these guys are looking at me.. it's weird.. ey i know i'm pretty in my own right.. but not to this level.. i feel like i'm so beautiful.. hmmm did cutting my hair make me more marketable? or is it just that everyone is running out of options and i'm the best catch in the market right now... makes you wonder...
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
top this
As
the saying goes once you go black you never go back... oppps don't let
your mind wander to far.. I'm speaking in terms of my car.. I drove the
12 passenger van we rented over the weekend and it was lite and it
almost seemed that you were driving a car on a high chair because
everything was elevated and way up there.. hehehe.. so now I returned
it and as I sat there in my car I now only named Grace, I felt she
wasn't big enough for me anymore bwahaha... oh well that's life.. next
agenda: buy a 12 passenger van hahaha... NOT, I'm not that crazy to
buy a freaking gas guzzler as big as King Kong hahaha.. but it sure
does feel like you're very powerful with the 12 passenger van...
Had so much fun in san francisco again.. it's my third time to be there
already and have fun with all the ARPP/Badlands/Cafe/Castro guys hahaha.. oh
but this time it was special 'coz I was with the Rage gang.. so it was
Los Angeles goes to San Francisco... and it was extra special 'coz it
was Jaysson's and VJ's bday... and we were there to dance the night
away...
Jaysson drove the first leg of the trip. We left L.A. at 8:30 on Friday and we were off.. we arrived San Mateo at around 3am, checked in the hotel and trued to sleep until 8am. Yes, I tried but I was making my usual phone call to the other part of the universe and slept at 4am. Tired and sleepy we had to wake up at 8 'coz the star brothers and sisters (their surname's bituin hehehe) was ready at
exactly 8am. yeah yeah yeah.. jaysson set the time(bitch!) hahaha.. I
drove our way around San Francisco so Ross could drive the last leg...
I was sad that last day going home I thought we weren't gonna have our
usual 10sec 10pic shots anymore coz there were just 9 of us.. but lo
and behold on our way home albert and the gang calls me to meet them at
ocean beach.. yay it was like 10-15 mins away wahoo.. so there we were
taking the 10sec 10pic shots hehehe.. pictures at olliemau.multiply.com ...
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Priceless Moments #1:
Going to San Francisco on a van(gas, van rental, hotel): $1035
Bay Bridge Toll Fee: $4
San Francisco Toll Fee: $5
De Young/ Conservatory of Flowers Parking Fee: $3
Paying $3 to go to the restroom at the De Young Museum 'coz the conservatory of flowers was 5 blocks away: Priceless
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Priceless Moments #2:
Badlands Entrance: $3
Cafe Entrance: $3
Comsilog at Lucky Chances at 5am the next day: $10
Ate and Leika fighting about Tocino and "Marinated Pork" while everyone was looking at the menu for marinated pork": Priceless
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except for some people who kept inviting us to go to their house even before we got to san fran(or even while planning this whole freaking thing) for their bday where they kept cancelling last minute(kaya daw napanis ung pansit, tse!) and take note we were already there and they didn't even bother to answer
the freaking phone to tell us no don't come to our apt anymore and they
knew we were they and they didn't even bother to tell us how to get
through the freaking gate until someone else taught us how to open it..
and yes another quiz at the freaking door, how do we get in.. pleaze
they wasted out 30 mins already which made us late in going home...
aside from all this bullshit, yeah you know who you are.. tao kaming
humaharap sa inyo para d nyo masabi na hindi kami dumating.. sana tao
din kayong magpakita kahit makipag-plastikan lang kayo.. kasi kami kung
d lang talaga nyo kami gusto makita hindi naman talaga kami pupunta
dyan....we had fun... without you.... so top that...
Quotes for the night:
Mari: kala ko ba dalagang pilipina ka...pokpok ka din pala (kasi naman may ka-eb kagad, kakadating lang ng frisco nyan ha...sino kaya un hahaha...)
Ate(in a mataray voice): wag na muna kayo umorder ng drinks nyo mamaya na...(ay d naman siya galit)
Leika(comsilog ang order-2 combinations of meat, sinangag at itlog): I want the longganisa and "marinated pork"..."marinated pork"..."marinated pork" (marinated pork nga naman kasi ang naka-lagay sa menu kayo talaga)
Ate(ulit): Tocino.. tocino.. tocino nga...(ay ayaw ng marinated pork hahaha)
Albert's old posse: ganyan ka na.. hindi ka na namamansin (ay loves ka pa nya hahaha... kasi naman daming kasamang girls e...)
VJ: Alam mo namang masama loob ko kagabi pa tapos d ka pa makikipagkita... I'M SORRY.... (bakla ka nadali mo ko dito kala ko umiiyak ka talaga)
home
It doesn't take much to make me happy... just seeing my family happy is
reason enough for me.. lately I've been longing to go back home... I still
call the Philippines my home after being here for almost 7 years
already... weird huh but until I have all my family here I will call it
home.. I long for the day I can wake up and hear laughter or crying in
the house because of my brother's kids.. I long for the day I can see
them everyday... I long for the day I can reach out and hug my brother
once again and bother him once in a while.. I'm homesick...sometimes
pictures are not enough...
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
pissed off
I'm so pissed off right now.. I don't even know why, I just am.. ugh lack of sleep again? sigh... I want my 8 hour sleep cycle.. please give it back to me wahhhhhhh.. i get too much cranky too often.. sigh.. this can't be good.. i need another vacation.. oh wait san fran this weekend wahoooo... vj get out the red carpet hehehe...
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Got this from Jenny - Para sa mga Tangang Lalake at Magagandang Babae
In this world of uncertainty it just takes an article like this to make me smile for the rest of the day... Thanks Jenny for posting this and making me smile..
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Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin. Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti ako, "Hindi ako nagsawa. Natauhan lang." Pwede mo kong lokohin pero wag kang magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong palitan pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya sakin. Pwede mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo. Kasi pag ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan.
Ang Boys? Pag trip ka, magpapakilala. Kaibigan kuno hanggang pumorma na. Tapos pag nahulog ka na, ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila. Pero dapat walang iiyak at smile lang tayo. Punyeta, anong silbi ng karma?
I fell in love and got hurt but I didn't shed too much tears nor did I ask him to love me again. Instead, I stood up proudly and said, "Ganyan talaga ang magaganda! Hindi bagay sa tanga!" Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag minahal ka, mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo rin. Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka na nga, iiyakan mo pa? Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang sisihin! Kausapin mo siya ng harap-harapan at sabihin mong, "Ingat, tanga ka pa naman!" Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag kang magagalit ng husto. Kahit papano may pinagsamahan naman kayo, diba? Kaya for the last time yakapin mo siya at ibulong mo, "Gago, kukulamin kita!"
Girls, talo daw sayo sa mga boys? Papayag kayo? Sige, pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad. Pag iniwan tayo? Ok lang. Kapag sinabi nilang, "Uy, ex ko." Alam niyo sagot diyan? "Ay, ambisyoso."
If the one you love doesn't love you back, don't get depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe cry a bit then wipe your tears and say, "Ang weird naman niya. Di siya pumapatol sa magaganda!" You only got one life so live it well., one heart so take good care, one soul so keep it pure. One boyfriend? What a waste! Make it two or more! Sayang ganda natin!
Pag sinabi sayo ng mahal mo na ayaw na niya sayo, hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at magpapakagago! Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at sabihin mo ang ganito, "So, pano? Bye na!Naghihintay na ang kapalit mo!" Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit. Makirot sa puso. Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn't only an end to a relationship. It's also a beginning of a new one and an end to a living hell called "ex".
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Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin. Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti ako, "Hindi ako nagsawa. Natauhan lang." Pwede mo kong lokohin pero wag kang magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong palitan pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya sakin. Pwede mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo. Kasi pag ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan.
Ang Boys? Pag trip ka, magpapakilala. Kaibigan kuno hanggang pumorma na. Tapos pag nahulog ka na, ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila. Pero dapat walang iiyak at smile lang tayo. Punyeta, anong silbi ng karma?
I fell in love and got hurt but I didn't shed too much tears nor did I ask him to love me again. Instead, I stood up proudly and said, "Ganyan talaga ang magaganda! Hindi bagay sa tanga!" Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag minahal ka, mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo rin. Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka na nga, iiyakan mo pa? Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang sisihin! Kausapin mo siya ng harap-harapan at sabihin mong, "Ingat, tanga ka pa naman!" Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag kang magagalit ng husto. Kahit papano may pinagsamahan naman kayo, diba? Kaya for the last time yakapin mo siya at ibulong mo, "Gago, kukulamin kita!"
Girls, talo daw sayo sa mga boys? Papayag kayo? Sige, pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad. Pag iniwan tayo? Ok lang. Kapag sinabi nilang, "Uy, ex ko." Alam niyo sagot diyan? "Ay, ambisyoso."
If the one you love doesn't love you back, don't get depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe cry a bit then wipe your tears and say, "Ang weird naman niya. Di siya pumapatol sa magaganda!" You only got one life so live it well., one heart so take good care, one soul so keep it pure. One boyfriend? What a waste! Make it two or more! Sayang ganda natin!
Pag sinabi sayo ng mahal mo na ayaw na niya sayo, hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at magpapakagago! Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at sabihin mo ang ganito, "So, pano? Bye na!Naghihintay na ang kapalit mo!" Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit. Makirot sa puso. Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn't only an end to a relationship. It's also a beginning of a new one and an end to a living hell called "ex".
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Heartbreaker - Pink
I keep thinkin' bout that little sparkle in your eye
Is it a light from the angels, or
your devil deep inside?
What about the way you say you love me all the time
Are you liftin' me up to heaven, just
to drop me down the line?
There's a ring around my finger,
But will you change your mind?
And you tell me that I'm beautiful,
But that could be a lie
Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride
What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive
I won't be leavin' here alive, no
Temporary happiness is like waiting for the knife
Cause I'm always watchin' for someone
to show their darker side
So maybe I'll sit back and just enjoy all this for now
Watch it all play out, see if you really stick around
But there's always this one question
That keeps me up at night
Are you my greatest love
Or disappointment in my life?
Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride
What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive
I might as well lay down and die
I'm holding on with both hands and both feet, oh
Promise that you won't pull the rug out from under me
Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride
I pray to god you're not a heartbreaker
This time around I won't survive
Cause if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive
I might as well lay down and die, oh
I won't be leavin' here alive
Is it a light from the angels, or
your devil deep inside?
What about the way you say you love me all the time
Are you liftin' me up to heaven, just
to drop me down the line?
There's a ring around my finger,
But will you change your mind?
And you tell me that I'm beautiful,
But that could be a lie
Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride
What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive
I won't be leavin' here alive, no
Temporary happiness is like waiting for the knife
Cause I'm always watchin' for someone
to show their darker side
So maybe I'll sit back and just enjoy all this for now
Watch it all play out, see if you really stick around
But there's always this one question
That keeps me up at night
Are you my greatest love
Or disappointment in my life?
Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride
What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive
I might as well lay down and die
I'm holding on with both hands and both feet, oh
Promise that you won't pull the rug out from under me
Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride
I pray to god you're not a heartbreaker
This time around I won't survive
Cause if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive
I might as well lay down and die, oh
I won't be leavin' here alive
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Falling - Tyrone Wells
I got my wish last Saturday... Tyrone sang my favorite song as the first song for the night... Falling.... sigh..
i hear your voice from down below
the sweetest sound i've ever known
you call me closer to the edge
to take a step and just let it go
i know i want you
thats why i'm afraid
can you feel me falling for you
feel me falling
cause i fear i'm falling for you
i fear i'm falling
i wont pretend that youre naive
its hard to hide whats plain to see
but i will try to stand my ground
and catch the breath you take from me
i know i want you
thats why i'm afraid
can you feel me falling for you
feel me falling
cause i fear i'm falling for you
i fear i'm falling..falling..falling..falling
can you feel me falling for you
feel me falling
and i wanna feel you falling for me
feel you falling...
dont be the one that got away
you cant just go, my heart will break
i have to show you how i really feel
you are the reason i believe
that love is a possibility
you are the dream i never thought was real
can you feel my falling for you
feel me falling
and i wanna feel you falling for me
feel you falling..falling..falling..falling..
i hear your voice from down below
the sweetest sound i've ever known
you call me closer to the edge
to take a step and just let it go
i know i want you
thats why i'm afraid
can you feel me falling for you
feel me falling
cause i fear i'm falling for you
i fear i'm falling
i wont pretend that youre naive
its hard to hide whats plain to see
but i will try to stand my ground
and catch the breath you take from me
i know i want you
thats why i'm afraid
can you feel me falling for you
feel me falling
cause i fear i'm falling for you
i fear i'm falling..falling..falling..falling
can you feel me falling for you
feel me falling
and i wanna feel you falling for me
feel you falling...
dont be the one that got away
you cant just go, my heart will break
i have to show you how i really feel
you are the reason i believe
that love is a possibility
you are the dream i never thought was real
can you feel my falling for you
feel me falling
and i wanna feel you falling for me
feel you falling..falling..falling..falling..
Friday, June 6, 2008
Dreaming With a Broken Heart - John Mayer
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
Oooooooooohhhhhhhhh
Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
Oooooooooohhhhhhhhh
Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
Friday, May 30, 2008
communication from men in trees
I love the show men in trees because like grey's anatomy they have the life's lessons in the end which is usually narrated by marin the writer... on this particular episode she spoke about communication which I found very appropriate for my situation...
the mind is a funny thing its the place from which everything emanates yet no one can access anyone else's which means we've got to communicate. With animals we use only the most straightforward language, words like sit, stay and no, but between one another things get complicated. What we say is not always what we mean and at times we have to fight through mixed messages, or start all over again. But no mater how hard it is or how often we feel mistunderstood it is our responsibility to keep fighting for clarity because in the end we teach ppl how to treat us, which means the responsibility to communicate lies not on the shoulders of others but on ourselves...
the mind is a funny thing its the place from which everything emanates yet no one can access anyone else's which means we've got to communicate. With animals we use only the most straightforward language, words like sit, stay and no, but between one another things get complicated. What we say is not always what we mean and at times we have to fight through mixed messages, or start all over again. But no mater how hard it is or how often we feel mistunderstood it is our responsibility to keep fighting for clarity because in the end we teach ppl how to treat us, which means the responsibility to communicate lies not on the shoulders of others but on ourselves...
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Man is condemned to be free
I was watching 'chopsuey' online and at the end of the movie I heard this quote...
"Man is condemned to be free."
According to a philosopher--
you're free to cry until your tears run dry.
You're free to say what you want to say
until you lose your voice.
You're free to fight back
until your body becomes numb.
And most of all,
you're free to love until it hurts,
'till you forget yourself.
Like a mist.
Like a scent.
Like a spark.
sigh...
"Man is condemned to be free."
According to a philosopher--
you're free to cry until your tears run dry.
You're free to say what you want to say
until you lose your voice.
You're free to fight back
until your body becomes numb.
And most of all,
you're free to love until it hurts,
'till you forget yourself.
Like a mist.
Like a scent.
Like a spark.
sigh...
Sunday, May 25, 2008
last day in DC - 2:30 am =)
It's my last day in DC and as far as going home goes this is the least part of my vacation that I like.. I've had way too much fun here in DC.. too many nice people who made my vacation so much fun and worth it.. this is one vacation I can and will never forget.. this will be imprinted in my memory bank for all time..
Jon and Shay - thanks for welcoming me into your life.. I loved every minute of my vacation.. omg Julia was the best thing that happened to all of us.. I know I'm just a godmother but still... thanks for making me hers... John, mag-ingat ka sa pupuntahan mo.. you will always be in my prayers... ang saya sana kung kapitbahay ko kayo or at least you were in Oxnard I could swing by your house whenever you need me to be there =) or I need to be there hehehe.. I haven't left and I miss you guys already..
Evil Eric, Gats, Ann: omg you guys are the best.. I had fun taking pictures with you guys... thanks for making my stay in DC so much fun...
Evil Eric: It was so much fun cooking with you master chef, dami kong natutunan sayo... pamatay ung buko pandan na un.. salamat sa recipe.. kung maalala ko pa hahaha... saka kahit na akong nag-hiwa ng lahat ng rekado ng pansit at palabok at reklamador ka and take note 2 hours ka nag break oks lang it was fun working with you... ang galing parang nakita ko ung ollie na guy version hahaha... ang saya nyan pag dating ng family mo handa na kagad ang mga kakainin nila hehehe.. wonderful food master chef =)
Gats, Ann: ang saya d ba you're gonna be in VA for the next 3 years =), at least you have these guys there with you to brighten up your day hehehe...
Mike: my ever wonderful partner in crime/brother/sister/confidante/mentor thanks for being with me on this wonderful and momentuous occassion.. I almost died when you said you couldn't come.. I hope you enjoyed your vacation too.. I certainly enjoyed mine because you were there =) Love you always...
Jon and Shay - thanks for welcoming me into your life.. I loved every minute of my vacation.. omg Julia was the best thing that happened to all of us.. I know I'm just a godmother but still... thanks for making me hers... John, mag-ingat ka sa pupuntahan mo.. you will always be in my prayers... ang saya sana kung kapitbahay ko kayo or at least you were in Oxnard I could swing by your house whenever you need me to be there =) or I need to be there hehehe.. I haven't left and I miss you guys already..
Evil Eric, Gats, Ann: omg you guys are the best.. I had fun taking pictures with you guys... thanks for making my stay in DC so much fun...
Evil Eric: It was so much fun cooking with you master chef, dami kong natutunan sayo... pamatay ung buko pandan na un.. salamat sa recipe.. kung maalala ko pa hahaha... saka kahit na akong nag-hiwa ng lahat ng rekado ng pansit at palabok at reklamador ka and take note 2 hours ka nag break oks lang it was fun working with you... ang galing parang nakita ko ung ollie na guy version hahaha... ang saya nyan pag dating ng family mo handa na kagad ang mga kakainin nila hehehe.. wonderful food master chef =)
Gats, Ann: ang saya d ba you're gonna be in VA for the next 3 years =), at least you have these guys there with you to brighten up your day hehehe...
Mike: my ever wonderful partner in crime/brother/sister/confidante/mentor thanks for being with me on this wonderful and momentuous occassion.. I almost died when you said you couldn't come.. I hope you enjoyed your vacation too.. I certainly enjoyed mine because you were there =) Love you always...
Thursday, May 22, 2008
wondering...
I don't think this song is appropriate for someone I know who is very happy right now.. pero I think this is the song that entered my head when I was given the good news because of the chorus hehehe =) Congratulations guys =)
Will you like to watch the sunrise
Will you have blue or brown eyes
What are the dreams you long to share
I hope you like Stevie Wonder
Are you afraid of thunder
I close my eyes and say a prayer your out there somewhere
Chorus:
I've been waiting all my life for you
I've been wishing on every shining star
I've been watching out of my window
Wondering where you are Wondering where you are
My heart's my only treasure
I've been saving it for your pleasure
I can't wait to give my heart to you
We'll walk this road together
That leads us to forever
I close my eyes and say a prayer your out there somewhere
Chorus
Too many nights alone
And this house won't be a home until I'm with you
I've been waiting all my life for you
I've been wishing on every shining star
Chorus
Wondering where you are Wondering where you are
Wondering where you are Wondering where you are
Wondering Where You Are - Tyrone Wells
Will you like to watch the sunrise
Will you have blue or brown eyes
What are the dreams you long to share
I hope you like Stevie Wonder
Are you afraid of thunder
I close my eyes and say a prayer your out there somewhere
Chorus:
I've been waiting all my life for you
I've been wishing on every shining star
I've been watching out of my window
Wondering where you are Wondering where you are
My heart's my only treasure
I've been saving it for your pleasure
I can't wait to give my heart to you
We'll walk this road together
That leads us to forever
I close my eyes and say a prayer your out there somewhere
Chorus
Too many nights alone
And this house won't be a home until I'm with you
I've been waiting all my life for you
I've been wishing on every shining star
Chorus
Wondering where you are Wondering where you are
Wondering where you are Wondering where you are
Wondering Where You Are - Tyrone Wells
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
excited
It's official!!!
I'm officially excited about my Washington trip enough to merit me not going to the gym today so I can go do whatever packing and errands I have to do.. yay!!!!
I know procastination is not good when you are going on a trip but yesterday not only did my lamp light get busted(the only light in my room), I felt blah yesterday too.. so now finally i'm into the excited I'm going to washington to see my friends phase..yay!!!
I'm officially excited about my Washington trip enough to merit me not going to the gym today so I can go do whatever packing and errands I have to do.. yay!!!!
I know procastination is not good when you are going on a trip but yesterday not only did my lamp light get busted(the only light in my room), I felt blah yesterday too.. so now finally i'm into the excited I'm going to washington to see my friends phase..yay!!!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
the serenity prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
three in one...
this is rare.. me blogging 3 times already today...hmmm..
I was just thinking that friends come is different packages and at different times.. and most of the time they know when to be there for you.. even the simplest hi and knowing that they are there can make your day... and just when you thought you were meant to endure stuff alone, they come in droves... it's funny how even some people you seldom talk to take the time to pick up the phone and leave scary messages on your phone that will make you laugh when you realise it's them (ileto-langya ka kala ko may stalker na ko last night, I just heard your voice mail)... and when you least expect it some people even stop and take time to listen... thanks...
to my gym buddies John and Tats and to Michelle: no I wasn't bored out of my skull when we guys went out.. I was drunk kaya ako tahimik hahaha... thanks for taking me out.. I needed the break... too much gym is making me thin anyway bwahaha...
to the rage/max gang: I love dancing with you guys.. let's just not do 2 nights in a row again.. sobrang naubos energy ko doon.. hahaha... sarah good luck on ur singing career.. pinapatanong ng erpat ko gusto mo daw sumama sa banda? hehehe.. miss ka na namin sa mega...
to my officemate/friend/dancing buddy/cute guy watching partner Jaysson: I know you won't be reading this but thanks anyway for being there everyday for me.. lalo na pag naloloka na ko k tatay hahaha.. but not only for that but for all the laughs and the tears we've shared... omg I can't even imagine not being officemates with you.. so yes we will come as a package deal if ever I decide to move hahaha...
to my best friend, sister, soul mate Apple: I forgot how good it was to just sit down and talk about anything and everything..and eat chocolate chip calzone..yummy.... It's just sad that it always takes a momentuous/mind boggling/life changing event for us to do this often.. omg I miss your apartment in Alhambra hahaha...
Anyway this blog is beginning to sound more and more like a eulogy and a memento so I'll stop here hahaha.. but thanks guys for spending last week with me.. I had so much fun..
I was just thinking that friends come is different packages and at different times.. and most of the time they know when to be there for you.. even the simplest hi and knowing that they are there can make your day... and just when you thought you were meant to endure stuff alone, they come in droves... it's funny how even some people you seldom talk to take the time to pick up the phone and leave scary messages on your phone that will make you laugh when you realise it's them (ileto-langya ka kala ko may stalker na ko last night, I just heard your voice mail)... and when you least expect it some people even stop and take time to listen... thanks...
to my gym buddies John and Tats and to Michelle: no I wasn't bored out of my skull when we guys went out.. I was drunk kaya ako tahimik hahaha... thanks for taking me out.. I needed the break... too much gym is making me thin anyway bwahaha...
to the rage/max gang: I love dancing with you guys.. let's just not do 2 nights in a row again.. sobrang naubos energy ko doon.. hahaha... sarah good luck on ur singing career.. pinapatanong ng erpat ko gusto mo daw sumama sa banda? hehehe.. miss ka na namin sa mega...
to my officemate/friend/dancing buddy/cute guy watching partner Jaysson: I know you won't be reading this but thanks anyway for being there everyday for me.. lalo na pag naloloka na ko k tatay hahaha.. but not only for that but for all the laughs and the tears we've shared... omg I can't even imagine not being officemates with you.. so yes we will come as a package deal if ever I decide to move hahaha...
to my best friend, sister, soul mate Apple: I forgot how good it was to just sit down and talk about anything and everything..and eat chocolate chip calzone..yummy.... It's just sad that it always takes a momentuous/mind boggling/life changing event for us to do this often.. omg I miss your apartment in Alhambra hahaha...
Anyway this blog is beginning to sound more and more like a eulogy and a memento so I'll stop here hahaha.. but thanks guys for spending last week with me.. I had so much fun..
what the heck
this video made me laugh out loud, I just wonder where my cousin got this from.. hehehe... enjoy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fbGkxcY7YFU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fbGkxcY7YFU
so out of tune
Omg I saw the video of how I sang in Kbox last night and I was so embarassed, It was drunk Ollie singing..ewww... it was scary hahaha.. anyway that's not what this blog is all about...
I was talking to Apple last night and we were talking about stuff as usual and eating chocolate chip calzone, omg I forgot how it made me feel calm, mellow and at peace(I wanted to sleep right there and then, but we were at a restaurant haha).. anyway the last thing I remembered we were saying was akin ka na lang and apple singing that verse.. so this morning I looked for it in youtube and omg was I out of tune when it came to Filipino music and artists.. I never heard of this song before and I was surprised I liked it.. Itchyworms rocks haha.. I know I'm years behind.. I need to catch up on my Filipino music... I got disgusted when everyone started doing revivals, the whole thing threw me off, why do revivals when you can sing your own song...
Akin ka na lang - Itchyworms
Intro
Verse 1
‘Wag kang maniwala d’yan. ‘Di ka n’ya mahal talaga
Sayang lang ang buhay mo kung mapupunta ka lang sa kanya
Iiwanan ka lang n’yan, mag-ingat ka
Dagdag ka lamang sa milyun-milyong babae n’ya
Chorus
Akin ka na lang (akin ka na lang)
Iingatan ko ang puso mo
Akin ka na lang (akin ka na lang)
Wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo
Verse 2
‘Di naman ako bolero katulad ng ibang tao
Ang totoo’y pag nandyan ka medyo nabubulol pa nga ako
Malangis lang ang dila n’yan, ‘wag kang madala
Dahan-dahan ka lang, baka pati ika’y mabiktima (’Wag naman sana)
Repeat Chorus
Refrain
‘Di naman sa sinisiraan ko ang pangit na ‘yan
‘Wag ka dapat sa’kin magduda, hinding-hindi kita pababayaan!
Repeat Chorus
Akin ka na lang
Liligaya ka sa pag-ibig ko
Akin ka na lang
At wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo
Wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo (akin ka na lang)
I was talking to Apple last night and we were talking about stuff as usual and eating chocolate chip calzone, omg I forgot how it made me feel calm, mellow and at peace(I wanted to sleep right there and then, but we were at a restaurant haha).. anyway the last thing I remembered we were saying was akin ka na lang and apple singing that verse.. so this morning I looked for it in youtube and omg was I out of tune when it came to Filipino music and artists.. I never heard of this song before and I was surprised I liked it.. Itchyworms rocks haha.. I know I'm years behind.. I need to catch up on my Filipino music... I got disgusted when everyone started doing revivals, the whole thing threw me off, why do revivals when you can sing your own song...
Akin ka na lang - Itchyworms
Intro
Verse 1
‘Wag kang maniwala d’yan. ‘Di ka n’ya mahal talaga
Sayang lang ang buhay mo kung mapupunta ka lang sa kanya
Iiwanan ka lang n’yan, mag-ingat ka
Dagdag ka lamang sa milyun-milyong babae n’ya
Chorus
Akin ka na lang (akin ka na lang)
Iingatan ko ang puso mo
Akin ka na lang (akin ka na lang)
Wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo
Verse 2
‘Di naman ako bolero katulad ng ibang tao
Ang totoo’y pag nandyan ka medyo nabubulol pa nga ako
Malangis lang ang dila n’yan, ‘wag kang madala
Dahan-dahan ka lang, baka pati ika’y mabiktima (’Wag naman sana)
Repeat Chorus
Refrain
‘Di naman sa sinisiraan ko ang pangit na ‘yan
‘Wag ka dapat sa’kin magduda, hinding-hindi kita pababayaan!
Repeat Chorus
Akin ka na lang
Liligaya ka sa pag-ibig ko
Akin ka na lang
At wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo
Wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo (akin ka na lang)
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
What I want for my funeral
I know it's morbid but I was listening to this song on my itunes and I was thinking this is what I want on my funeral with a power point presentation of all the pictures I took all these years... it's like my tribute to everyone who has touched my life.. I know most people put this as their wedding song but hey I can put this at my funeral too right hahaha...I have a few of them lined up already but this the one I like best now =)
I could not ask for more - Edwin Mccain
Lying here with you, listening to the rain.
Smiling just to see a smile upon your face.
And these are the moments I'll remember all my life.
I found all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes, seeing all I need.
Girl, I think you are it's everything to me.
These are the moments I know heaven must exist.
These are the moments I know all I need is this.
I have all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.
[Reff:]
I could not ask for more than this time together.
I couldn't ask for more that this time with you.
Every breath has been answered. Every dream that has come through.
Yeah, right here in this moment, it's that we're all meant to be.
(Oh) here with you, here with me.
And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive.
And these are the moments I'll remember all my life.
I've got all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.
[Repeat Reff]
I could not ask for more than the love you gave me
cos it's all I've waited for.
And I could not ask for more.
I could not ask for more - Edwin Mccain
Lying here with you, listening to the rain.
Smiling just to see a smile upon your face.
And these are the moments I'll remember all my life.
I found all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes, seeing all I need.
Girl, I think you are it's everything to me.
These are the moments I know heaven must exist.
These are the moments I know all I need is this.
I have all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.
[Reff:]
I could not ask for more than this time together.
I couldn't ask for more that this time with you.
Every breath has been answered. Every dream that has come through.
Yeah, right here in this moment, it's that we're all meant to be.
(Oh) here with you, here with me.
And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive.
And these are the moments I'll remember all my life.
I've got all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.
[Repeat Reff]
I could not ask for more than the love you gave me
cos it's all I've waited for.
And I could not ask for more.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
sometimes
Sometimes....
I wished I smoked... just to relieve the tension and stress that I feel... not that I want to start the habit but just having something to do... nowadays I turn to the gym to turn my aggravation and frustration into positive energy but it seems I get too restless too easy, I get upset too easy, I get the feeling of discontent too easy and tears flow too freely...
I just wish I could just get up and leave.. leave everything behind me.. and just start anew...
I just wish I knew what the future holds so I can just get straight there and skip all the sordid details of how to get there.. hahaha.. too impatient...
I just wish everything would be easier..
I wished I smoked... just to relieve the tension and stress that I feel... not that I want to start the habit but just having something to do... nowadays I turn to the gym to turn my aggravation and frustration into positive energy but it seems I get too restless too easy, I get upset too easy, I get the feeling of discontent too easy and tears flow too freely...
I just wish I could just get up and leave.. leave everything behind me.. and just start anew...
I just wish I knew what the future holds so I can just get straight there and skip all the sordid details of how to get there.. hahaha.. too impatient...
I just wish everything would be easier..
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Too much of nina
I think I had too much of nina.. she's transferring her energy to me which makes me sigh alot these days...
who knows maybe I miss Jun or maybe not...
Is it really rare for a guy to say I miss you a girl most of the time? I was talking to one of my guy best friends and he's like you should be happy he says that he misses you it's rare for guys these days to admit that they miss you... I don't know writing something is different from saying... I just feel blah and I'm getting something different from this time away from one another... In short I don't miss him as much as I thought I would.. I think I need more time away now with me on vacation too.. coz you see it's hard when people ask how he is and I can't give a concrete answer coz not only is he not enthusiastic to talk to on the phone but we don't have any stories to swap anymore.. it's been just blah.. when I'm anxious to talk to him and tell him my stories he has something else to top it off with that's more depressing or more awesome mine can't compare and I'd just clam up and not talk about it.. I didn't notice it before but were we like this even before he left? sigh.. I can't even talk to anyone close to me right now everyone's busy I just want to break down and cry.. cry coz im so tired of this job.. cry coz i want a vacation i can't have.. cry because im so tired i just want to lie on the beach and do nothing.. sigh... I'm 30 and I think I'm having my mid life crisis hahaha... sigh...
who knows maybe I miss Jun or maybe not...
Is it really rare for a guy to say I miss you a girl most of the time? I was talking to one of my guy best friends and he's like you should be happy he says that he misses you it's rare for guys these days to admit that they miss you... I don't know writing something is different from saying... I just feel blah and I'm getting something different from this time away from one another... In short I don't miss him as much as I thought I would.. I think I need more time away now with me on vacation too.. coz you see it's hard when people ask how he is and I can't give a concrete answer coz not only is he not enthusiastic to talk to on the phone but we don't have any stories to swap anymore.. it's been just blah.. when I'm anxious to talk to him and tell him my stories he has something else to top it off with that's more depressing or more awesome mine can't compare and I'd just clam up and not talk about it.. I didn't notice it before but were we like this even before he left? sigh.. I can't even talk to anyone close to me right now everyone's busy I just want to break down and cry.. cry coz im so tired of this job.. cry coz i want a vacation i can't have.. cry because im so tired i just want to lie on the beach and do nothing.. sigh... I'm 30 and I think I'm having my mid life crisis hahaha... sigh...
Monday, April 21, 2008
bday
Someone asked me last Sunday..what was the best gift you got for your bday? Without thinking I said having my friends come to my parties(yes it's plural) was the best.. and of course always having my family here by my side... I turned 30 this year and I had three parties already and we still plan to get it going until the end of my birth month hehehe..
Party #1: I Kicked off the weekend before my birthday with a party at Rage(my favorite place to dance).. We had Jaysson, Zair, Chelle, Layka(sp? chelle's friend), Jason, Allen, Irwin(allen's friend), Sarah, Abbey(sarah's friend), Apple, Bingle(Apple's bf) and a few of Sarah's friends join us in dancing the night away.. thanks guys I had a blast dancing my feet off and watching people dance *wink wink*.. and thank you Jason for not being too drunk and kissing everyone again hahaha... opppsss... Allen thank you for the very special appearance, I didn't know you were a good dancer.. we should go out more and practice those dancing shoes.. bwahhaha... Zair stop being so magnetic, she got too many guys milling around her ALL the time bwahhaa.. too bad she doesn't care bwahahha.. she just wants to dance too hehehe.. thanks guys I love going out with you.... I took the day off for my birthday... I wanted to get away from everyone and everything.. I wanted to just spend the day at the beach, by myself.. when suddenly the perfect 80 degree beach weather started to become 65 exactly on my bday.. yeah it never was sunny on my bday.. there is either rain or clouds, yes we used to toss a chicken's egg outside just to make sure what the weather would be like before we set up stuff outside(a whole yolk meant sun, a broken one meant rain), and there would be usually rain whatever the outcome is hahaha.. anyway so there I was shivering to death in bed, waiting for the sun to come out... when jun said we were going to have bfast with his dad, gilbert, matthew, jonathan and my goddaughter eliza mae.. and then they all decided to come with us to the beach.. yay!!!! I know I decided being alone on a freakishly cold, dreary morning on a beach alone was not a good idea.. if there was sun that was another story.... anyway so there we had bfast at micky D's and off to the beach we went.. we met up with my brother John Ray on the way there and he had fun with the kids too as much as I did... after that I decided to grab my stuff and go to the gym but fatigue got the better of me and I succumbed to the calling of the mattress hahaha.. I slept until it was time to have dinner... which I wanted not to do anymore coz I was so tired running after and carrying Jonathan hahhaa.. I love that kid...
(Suprise!) Party #2: A few of my friends surprised me on my exact bday..yay! Yeah mads, asking me where I was going for the night didn't work as a ruse to keep me off track =P mwehehe... anyway Tins, Mads, Paul - thanks for the strawberry pie(yummy), wish you could have shared it with us...and Apple and Bingle - thanks for the Sansrival(drool drool drool) joined us for a dinner with the family at Buca de Beppo... I always wanted to go there and yay I got to do it on my birthday.. finally! and it was good.. we ordered chicken alfredo pasta with red bell pepper and broccolli(sp?), spaghetti with meat sauce, and a big mushroom pizza with spicy sausage.. yummmyy.. i ate too much, more that I should have but it's my bday and I was going to the gym the next day hehehe so there you go yay!!!! thank you guys for coming!!!
Party #3: We went camping yay!!! I love being outdoors.. yeah even in freakishly 65 degree weather with high freaking winds that sounded like a storm outside our tent bwahhaa... We went biking in santa barbara with Jun, Mads, her mom, Zair(yes we are adopting the Cuala sisters all 3 of them that are in L.A. bwahhaa), My parents, my brothers John and Ralph and my lola which if you add us all together would be 9.. That was the maximum amount of people one crazy bike could take bwahhaa... Pedalling to make it move was always a challenge when we had to stop.. I could just imagine how jun maneuvers it around with all 9 of us heavy piggies riding on it bwahhaa... after that we went back to the camp ground to cook more food and eat, which by that time Jaysson, Chelle and Sarah was able to join us.. omg it was the most fun I had with people doing a photoshoot..we jumped, ran, lay down, posed, smiled and laughed until our sides hurt... that was the best exercise every bwahhaa... thanks guys...and thanks to my mom for taking all the pictures.. without you there would be no photo shoot bwahhaa... Apple and Bingle joined us that night but it was too cold to stay out and make a bonfire.. yes we crouched into the tent at 9 I think to grab as much sleep as we can, coz we were so tired of the photo shoot and the biking combined hahaha.. the next day was brighter, more sunny and less windy.. which was good for more photo shoot yay.. hahaha.. then we went to Ostrich Land( they don't sever ostrich burgers anymore and fried ostrich eggs) and Solvang(for some DAN-ISH {according to my dad} stuff hehehe..).. We ate the the Little Mermaid restaurant and everything was good..yummy.. A few of us had the combination danish sausage and meatballs with Mashed Potatoes and gravy and the others had the Danish steak which was soft, tender and very yummy.... from there we went to the bakery and bought some goodies.. I hope the day would never end hehehe... anyway so there it is my bday in a nutshell... for now hehehe...
Party #1: I Kicked off the weekend before my birthday with a party at Rage(my favorite place to dance).. We had Jaysson, Zair, Chelle, Layka(sp? chelle's friend), Jason, Allen, Irwin(allen's friend), Sarah, Abbey(sarah's friend), Apple, Bingle(Apple's bf) and a few of Sarah's friends join us in dancing the night away.. thanks guys I had a blast dancing my feet off and watching people dance *wink wink*.. and thank you Jason for not being too drunk and kissing everyone again hahaha... opppsss... Allen thank you for the very special appearance, I didn't know you were a good dancer.. we should go out more and practice those dancing shoes.. bwahhaha... Zair stop being so magnetic, she got too many guys milling around her ALL the time bwahhaa.. too bad she doesn't care bwahahha.. she just wants to dance too hehehe.. thanks guys I love going out with you.... I took the day off for my birthday... I wanted to get away from everyone and everything.. I wanted to just spend the day at the beach, by myself.. when suddenly the perfect 80 degree beach weather started to become 65 exactly on my bday.. yeah it never was sunny on my bday.. there is either rain or clouds, yes we used to toss a chicken's egg outside just to make sure what the weather would be like before we set up stuff outside(a whole yolk meant sun, a broken one meant rain), and there would be usually rain whatever the outcome is hahaha.. anyway so there I was shivering to death in bed, waiting for the sun to come out... when jun said we were going to have bfast with his dad, gilbert, matthew, jonathan and my goddaughter eliza mae.. and then they all decided to come with us to the beach.. yay!!!! I know I decided being alone on a freakishly cold, dreary morning on a beach alone was not a good idea.. if there was sun that was another story.... anyway so there we had bfast at micky D's and off to the beach we went.. we met up with my brother John Ray on the way there and he had fun with the kids too as much as I did... after that I decided to grab my stuff and go to the gym but fatigue got the better of me and I succumbed to the calling of the mattress hahaha.. I slept until it was time to have dinner... which I wanted not to do anymore coz I was so tired running after and carrying Jonathan hahhaa.. I love that kid...
(Suprise!) Party #2: A few of my friends surprised me on my exact bday..yay! Yeah mads, asking me where I was going for the night didn't work as a ruse to keep me off track =P mwehehe... anyway Tins, Mads, Paul - thanks for the strawberry pie(yummy), wish you could have shared it with us...and Apple and Bingle - thanks for the Sansrival(drool drool drool) joined us for a dinner with the family at Buca de Beppo... I always wanted to go there and yay I got to do it on my birthday.. finally! and it was good.. we ordered chicken alfredo pasta with red bell pepper and broccolli(sp?), spaghetti with meat sauce, and a big mushroom pizza with spicy sausage.. yummmyy.. i ate too much, more that I should have but it's my bday and I was going to the gym the next day hehehe so there you go yay!!!! thank you guys for coming!!!
Party #3: We went camping yay!!! I love being outdoors.. yeah even in freakishly 65 degree weather with high freaking winds that sounded like a storm outside our tent bwahhaa... We went biking in santa barbara with Jun, Mads, her mom, Zair(yes we are adopting the Cuala sisters all 3 of them that are in L.A. bwahhaa), My parents, my brothers John and Ralph and my lola which if you add us all together would be 9.. That was the maximum amount of people one crazy bike could take bwahhaa... Pedalling to make it move was always a challenge when we had to stop.. I could just imagine how jun maneuvers it around with all 9 of us heavy piggies riding on it bwahhaa... after that we went back to the camp ground to cook more food and eat, which by that time Jaysson, Chelle and Sarah was able to join us.. omg it was the most fun I had with people doing a photoshoot..we jumped, ran, lay down, posed, smiled and laughed until our sides hurt... that was the best exercise every bwahhaa... thanks guys...and thanks to my mom for taking all the pictures.. without you there would be no photo shoot bwahhaa... Apple and Bingle joined us that night but it was too cold to stay out and make a bonfire.. yes we crouched into the tent at 9 I think to grab as much sleep as we can, coz we were so tired of the photo shoot and the biking combined hahaha.. the next day was brighter, more sunny and less windy.. which was good for more photo shoot yay.. hahaha.. then we went to Ostrich Land( they don't sever ostrich burgers anymore and fried ostrich eggs) and Solvang(for some DAN-ISH {according to my dad} stuff hehehe..).. We ate the the Little Mermaid restaurant and everything was good..yummy.. A few of us had the combination danish sausage and meatballs with Mashed Potatoes and gravy and the others had the Danish steak which was soft, tender and very yummy.... from there we went to the bakery and bought some goodies.. I hope the day would never end hehehe... anyway so there it is my bday in a nutshell... for now hehehe...
Friday, April 11, 2008
Disturbing
I was looking through friends' friendster profiles and I was reading on their favorite musicians and stuff and I came across KD's profile that read Marie Digby's version of Umbrella. I knew I heard that name before so I decided to investigate again hehehe..
I was reading through her blogs and it's disturbing to learn that a girl as beautiful as her would be one of those that was ignored and rejected all the time by her peers. You can feel the pain in her song Miss Invisible and I think that it's just sad that kids experience this very early on in life. I know that I wasn't one of the popular kids in high school, i was a transferee too, but at least I had a few people I could call friends. I could say that I have one that I clicked with every year that I changed sections. We had fun all the time I'm still in touch with a few of them 'til now. I always thought that the beautiful girls had it built for them, you know they are popular, liked by everyone. But maybe there is that issue of race. We were lucky to land in L.A. and have my brothers go to a school where there were alot of Filipino kids. The school was so diversified that I think we could make the United Colors of Benetton commercial just with one classroom hehehe... Anyway people should never be judged according to race, color or how they look. I just find it distrubing that this so called free nation that's supposed to have a free society and have an open mind would have people reject each other at such a young age. Ok I know it's not only happening here, there is a reason why there are popular and not so popular kids but It's just sad that kids reject each other, when all they should be doing is having fun...
I was reading through her blogs and it's disturbing to learn that a girl as beautiful as her would be one of those that was ignored and rejected all the time by her peers. You can feel the pain in her song Miss Invisible and I think that it's just sad that kids experience this very early on in life. I know that I wasn't one of the popular kids in high school, i was a transferee too, but at least I had a few people I could call friends. I could say that I have one that I clicked with every year that I changed sections. We had fun all the time I'm still in touch with a few of them 'til now. I always thought that the beautiful girls had it built for them, you know they are popular, liked by everyone. But maybe there is that issue of race. We were lucky to land in L.A. and have my brothers go to a school where there were alot of Filipino kids. The school was so diversified that I think we could make the United Colors of Benetton commercial just with one classroom hehehe... Anyway people should never be judged according to race, color or how they look. I just find it distrubing that this so called free nation that's supposed to have a free society and have an open mind would have people reject each other at such a young age. Ok I know it's not only happening here, there is a reason why there are popular and not so popular kids but It's just sad that kids reject each other, when all they should be doing is having fun...
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
When is it time to shut your mouth
Question for the day: When is it time to shut your mouth?
When you feel like you've been run over by a steam roller at work and your boss calls you ten thousand times a day and piles work on your table again and again and again and asks you why the paper on his hand says this and that, do you just sit there and take everything? I've been in this office almost 7 years already and in that 7 years I can say that I have been able to practice temperance, diligence, patience, kindness and humility among the 7 virtues. It takes all of these virtues to deal with my boss every single day, but through the years I have mustered enough courage to speak up and scream as loud as I can, which is an exageration, but I learned to fight fire with fire and so far it has worked. Just yesterday one of our customers was sick, I know it was mean to tell him to go home and rest 'coz I don't want to be sick, guess what he said "shut the fuck up Ollie!" which was a joke but if I were my old sensitive self I'd have cowered and cried, but being me who I am today I told him to "shut the fuck up" too, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth.. =).. Sometimes I think that I open my mouth too much though coz now my boss was telling me " are you upset with me or something?", I just told him that I was doing something when he gave me something else to do and now he wants me to explain why the amounts on the papers in his hand are the way they are, I'm not upset, just let me finish what I'm doing right now first, then I will answer your questions... this is not the right time to shut your mouth...
When you are in a line going to the movies, not the library, museum or church, and rude people stare you down like you have some disease they could catch just because you are talking, should you shut your mouth? When you boss mutters something under his breath and you know that it's not something good, should you shut your mouth? when some idiot tries to be rude to you trying to speak in their language when you've insisted you don't understand, cut in line or bitch at you in a different language, should you shut your mouth? I don't, I learned to curse them with my native language, yes, being a Filipino and speaking the native language has alot of positive attributes. Most of our fellow countrymen want to be as American as possible, but me no, I love being a Filipino, oh but that would be another blog. Going back to my topic, just because we don't understand them doesn't mean they can go around bitching and cursing us, I can do that too, I know 2 different languages.. so there you go, NO I won't shut my mouth...
I'm so used to talking back at nasty people behind their back, or maybe in front of them in my native language just because I can and I think I'm getting used to being as nasty as they are, which I think will get me in trouble when I go back home, probably get me beaten up coz everybody there will understand what I'm saying hahaha.. I know this is not a laughing matter but think about it when someone crosses you and you know they said something bad for everyone to hear, do you hold your tounge in check and just let it pass? I have learned to do that at times but when they've crossed the line, I just let them get it too. I know I should start practicing restraint not only coz I plan to go back home soon(I don't want to get beaten or my hair pulled hahaha), but when I get out of this job I want to be the old me who is patient and can tolerate anything, not just too much. Now it is time to shut my mouth....
When is being frank a good thing and a bad thing. It is bad when too much information is said and it hurts the person,either it's not true or they're not ready to hear it, or it's not what they want to hear. It is good when too much information is said and it hurts the person because it's the truth and even though it hurts they should hear it anyway. In the 30 years I have been on this earth I can say that I would rather hear the truth(which usually hurts) than something I want to hear covered in lies and deceit. It's funny that I'd rather be in pain for the time being than wait and carry on a relationship or a friendship that would turn out painful any which way you look at it. Having lived here in this liberated country for the past 7 years I can say that I picked up the good and the bad, but most of all I learned to open my mouth and not just sit there and be a ragdoll. Looking back, I would rather have had my friends tell me I was a bitch when I was and tell me the truth than tell me what I wanted to hear, yes, I can be scary but not telling me the truth makes me more mad than I'm supposed to be, and yes, it will hurt and yes, I can and will recover, I just need time. Having said this I am warning everyone that this is who I am, I am frank-er than I used to be and I will say what I want. I changed, I think for the better but not because I'm boastful or because I'm full of air, this is life and I learned to deal with it and this is Ollie, all grown up, deal with it. No I will never shut my mouth...
When you feel like you've been run over by a steam roller at work and your boss calls you ten thousand times a day and piles work on your table again and again and again and asks you why the paper on his hand says this and that, do you just sit there and take everything? I've been in this office almost 7 years already and in that 7 years I can say that I have been able to practice temperance, diligence, patience, kindness and humility among the 7 virtues. It takes all of these virtues to deal with my boss every single day, but through the years I have mustered enough courage to speak up and scream as loud as I can, which is an exageration, but I learned to fight fire with fire and so far it has worked. Just yesterday one of our customers was sick, I know it was mean to tell him to go home and rest 'coz I don't want to be sick, guess what he said "shut the fuck up Ollie!" which was a joke but if I were my old sensitive self I'd have cowered and cried, but being me who I am today I told him to "shut the fuck up" too, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth.. =).. Sometimes I think that I open my mouth too much though coz now my boss was telling me " are you upset with me or something?", I just told him that I was doing something when he gave me something else to do and now he wants me to explain why the amounts on the papers in his hand are the way they are, I'm not upset, just let me finish what I'm doing right now first, then I will answer your questions... this is not the right time to shut your mouth...
When you are in a line going to the movies, not the library, museum or church, and rude people stare you down like you have some disease they could catch just because you are talking, should you shut your mouth? When you boss mutters something under his breath and you know that it's not something good, should you shut your mouth? when some idiot tries to be rude to you trying to speak in their language when you've insisted you don't understand, cut in line or bitch at you in a different language, should you shut your mouth? I don't, I learned to curse them with my native language, yes, being a Filipino and speaking the native language has alot of positive attributes. Most of our fellow countrymen want to be as American as possible, but me no, I love being a Filipino, oh but that would be another blog. Going back to my topic, just because we don't understand them doesn't mean they can go around bitching and cursing us, I can do that too, I know 2 different languages.. so there you go, NO I won't shut my mouth...
I'm so used to talking back at nasty people behind their back, or maybe in front of them in my native language just because I can and I think I'm getting used to being as nasty as they are, which I think will get me in trouble when I go back home, probably get me beaten up coz everybody there will understand what I'm saying hahaha.. I know this is not a laughing matter but think about it when someone crosses you and you know they said something bad for everyone to hear, do you hold your tounge in check and just let it pass? I have learned to do that at times but when they've crossed the line, I just let them get it too. I know I should start practicing restraint not only coz I plan to go back home soon(I don't want to get beaten or my hair pulled hahaha), but when I get out of this job I want to be the old me who is patient and can tolerate anything, not just too much. Now it is time to shut my mouth....
When is being frank a good thing and a bad thing. It is bad when too much information is said and it hurts the person,either it's not true or they're not ready to hear it, or it's not what they want to hear. It is good when too much information is said and it hurts the person because it's the truth and even though it hurts they should hear it anyway. In the 30 years I have been on this earth I can say that I would rather hear the truth(which usually hurts) than something I want to hear covered in lies and deceit. It's funny that I'd rather be in pain for the time being than wait and carry on a relationship or a friendship that would turn out painful any which way you look at it. Having lived here in this liberated country for the past 7 years I can say that I picked up the good and the bad, but most of all I learned to open my mouth and not just sit there and be a ragdoll. Looking back, I would rather have had my friends tell me I was a bitch when I was and tell me the truth than tell me what I wanted to hear, yes, I can be scary but not telling me the truth makes me more mad than I'm supposed to be, and yes, it will hurt and yes, I can and will recover, I just need time. Having said this I am warning everyone that this is who I am, I am frank-er than I used to be and I will say what I want. I changed, I think for the better but not because I'm boastful or because I'm full of air, this is life and I learned to deal with it and this is Ollie, all grown up, deal with it. No I will never shut my mouth...
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
3-25-08 Today's #1 Break Up Song
Someday
by Nina
Someday you're gonna realize
One day you'll see it through my eyes
But then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I can't
I know
You don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know i'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long
Chorus:
Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday
Right now
I know you can tell
I'm down,and i'm not doin' well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye
Chorus
Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday,
I know someone's gonne be there
Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday
Monday, March 24, 2008
Some don'ts in life I agree with...
Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your
genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you
are irresistible.
Don't associate with people you can't
trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think
you are old enough & know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving
them is harder.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your
genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you
are irresistible.
Don't associate with people you can't
trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think
you are old enough & know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving
them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or
your ideals.
your ideals.
Don't stagnate!
Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't
bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for
possibly Mr. Right.
Don't throw your life away on
absolutely Mr. Wrong because your
biological clock is ticking.
Learn a new skill.
Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't
bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for
possibly Mr. Right.
Don't throw your life away on
absolutely Mr. Wrong because your
biological clock is ticking.
Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won,
only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.
To terminate your loneliness, reach
out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care
for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies,
get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this
world for all the wrong reasons.
To make yourself happy, pursue your
passions & be the best of what you
can be. Simplify your life. Take away
the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements:
abusive friends, nasty habits, and
dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities
but don't overdose on duty.
Don't live life recklessly without
thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself. Don't commit when
you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.
Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment
pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's
scorn.
Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.
Take care of yourself. Don't wait for
someone to take care of you.
You light up your life. You drive
yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.
It isn't true that life does not get
easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid. Don't lose your
capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!
When you give someone your time, you
are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why
the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort,
and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.
God is good all the time!
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.
Take care of yourself. Don't wait for
someone to take care of you.
You light up your life. You drive
yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.
It isn't true that life does not get
easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid. Don't lose your
capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!
When you give someone your time, you
are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why
the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort,
and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.
God is good all the time!
Friday, March 21, 2008
Kobe Beef
We were watching the travel channel the other night and we came across the Great Steaks of America, and as lover of steaks we decided to stay on the channel and watch the show. They featured the following restaurants(some of them I missed):
Peter Luger - NY
Hilltop - Saugus, MA
Pats King of Steak - PA - cheesesteak sandwich
Cattlemans - El paso, TX - home of the BIG TEXAN 72oz steak
Buckhorn - Denver, CO - serves alligator and CO oysters(bulls balls)
Megu - Manhattan,NY - home of Kobe Beef
The restaurant and the steak that caught my eye was the Kobe Beef from Megu. Not only were the people raving about how soft and yummy and how it was the melt in your mouth kind of beef.They showed everyone how you can even eat the beef raw just like sushi and it was good and totally different, and how when you touch the beef with your finger it would leave an impression. That was how soft it was, it just shows how there was so much fat in it that it melts.
What I can't get over until now was the process on how the beef became so soft. The showed the viewers that in Japan they have at least 6 people per cow massaging the cow from head to toe(or I should say hoof) and there was one guy making the cow drink beer. Yes, I am not crazy and you read it right. Beer. The owner of the restaurant said that they massage the cow so it doesn't become stressed, coz when the cow is stressed the beef won't be as soft, and yes they feed it beer the whole day coz he said it relaxes the cow. Talk about having it good while you're alive hehehe...
I told this story to my officemates and figured why shouldn't they have it good when sooner than they can think they are gonna be slaughtered and eaten hehehe.. I know it's morbid but just look at how good these cows get it when the cows here in the US are being tortured.
Peter Luger - NY
Hilltop - Saugus, MA
Pats King of Steak - PA - cheesesteak sandwich
Cattlemans - El paso, TX - home of the BIG TEXAN 72oz steak
Buckhorn - Denver, CO - serves alligator and CO oysters(bulls balls)
Megu - Manhattan,NY - home of Kobe Beef
The restaurant and the steak that caught my eye was the Kobe Beef from Megu. Not only were the people raving about how soft and yummy and how it was the melt in your mouth kind of beef.They showed everyone how you can even eat the beef raw just like sushi and it was good and totally different, and how when you touch the beef with your finger it would leave an impression. That was how soft it was, it just shows how there was so much fat in it that it melts.
What I can't get over until now was the process on how the beef became so soft. The showed the viewers that in Japan they have at least 6 people per cow massaging the cow from head to toe(or I should say hoof) and there was one guy making the cow drink beer. Yes, I am not crazy and you read it right. Beer. The owner of the restaurant said that they massage the cow so it doesn't become stressed, coz when the cow is stressed the beef won't be as soft, and yes they feed it beer the whole day coz he said it relaxes the cow. Talk about having it good while you're alive hehehe...
I told this story to my officemates and figured why shouldn't they have it good when sooner than they can think they are gonna be slaughtered and eaten hehehe.. I know it's morbid but just look at how good these cows get it when the cows here in the US are being tortured.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Why God created children
WHY GOD CREATED CHILDREN
(AND IN THE PROCESS GRANDCHILDREN)
To those of us who have children in our lives,
whether they are our own,
grandchildren,
nieces,
nephews,
or students...
here is something to make you chuckle.
Whenever your children are out of control,
you can take comfort from the thought that
even God's omnipotence did not extend
to His own children.
After creating heaven and earth,
God created Adam and Eve..
And the first thing he said was
"DON'T!"
"Don't what ? "
Adam replied.
"Don't eat the forbidden fruit."
God said.
"Forbidden fruit ?
We have forbidden fruit ?
Hey Eve..we have forbidden fruit ! "
" No Way ! "
"Yes way ! "
"Do NOT eat the fruit ! "
said God.
"Why?"
"Because I am your Father and I said so! "
God replied,
wondering why He hadn't stopped
creation after making the elephants.
A few minutes later,
God saw His children having an apple break
and He was ticked !
"Didn't I tell you not to eat the fruit ? "
God asked.
"Uh huh,"
Adam replied.
"Then why did you ? "
said the Father.
"I don't know,"
said Eve.
"She started it ! "
Adam said.
"Did not ! "
"Did too ! "
"DID NOT"
Having had it with the two of them,
God's punishment was that Adam and Eve
should have children of their own.
Thus the pattern was set and it has never changed.
BUT THERE IS REASSURANCE IN THE STORY !
If you have persistently and lovingly tried to give children wisdom and they haven't taken it,
don't be hard on yourself.
If God had trouble raising children,
what makes you think it would be
a piece of cake for you ?
THINGS TO THINK ABOUT !
1. You spend the first two years of their life
teaching them to walk and talk. Then you spend
the next sixteen telling them to sit down and shut up.
2. Grandchildren are God's reward
for not killing your own children.
3. Mothers of teens now know why
some animals eat their young.
4. Children seldom misquote you.
- In fact, they usually repeat word for word
what you shouldn't have said.
5. The main purpose of holding children's parties
is to remind yourself that there are children
more awful than your own.
6. We childproofed our homes,
but they are still getting in.
ADVICE FOR THE DAY:
Be nice to your kids.
They will choose your
nursing home one day.
AND FINALLY:
IF YOU HAVE A LOT OF TENSION
AND YOU GET A HEADACHE,
DO WHAT IT SAYS
ON THE ASPIRIN BOTTLE:
" TAKE TWO ASPIRIN"
AND "KEEP AWAY FROM CHILDREN"!!!!!
Friday, February 22, 2008
some funny stuff I found while deleting old mail
===CHINESE NAMES===
* Chinese born during the night - Andy Lim>> *
born blind - Kenneth Sy>> *
born being swindled - Lino Co>> *
born while cooking - Nilo Toh>> *
born as 10th child - Sam Po>> *
born while being courted - Lily Gaw>> *
born fat - Bob Uy>> *
born cannot walk - Kent Go>> *
born little - Kathy Tin>> *
born with real estate - Lot Te>> *
born different - Eva Yan>> *
born with porridge - Lino Gaw>> *
born looking for someone - Allen Sia>> *
born while counterfeiting - Faye King>> *
born during Sunday - Lyn Go>> *
born with malice - Mali Sia>> *
born with picture - Lara Huan>> *
born with sweets - Ken Dy>> *
born undefined - Sam Ting>> *
born while taking a bath - Lily Go>> *
born while buying - Bill Li>> *
born secretly - Tina Go
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Monday, February 18, 2008
Laundry
Talk about road rage, the laundromat is a very good example of developing rage when you don't need it and when you least expect it.
I love doing my laundry at a laundromat every 2-3 weeks, esp when nobody's there. I know there's a laundromat at my bf's apartment and I could use that but I love it when all my clothes are getting washed and dried all at the same time, which means that I can be finished in an hour or 2 depending on the amount of clothes I need to wash, which means I don't spend all day timing the dryer and washer and going up and down 10 million times to find out that it's not yet done..
In comes the I'm in a hurry, I need alot of washers, I need alot of dryers, I need your cart women, moms, moms and kids... I usually don't bother with them... I let them be.. go do whatever but when they become rude, nasty, they start to get your stuff and try to watch over your clothes like they want to remove them out of the washer and dryer when it's not theirs pisses me off... when you want to be nice and helpful by pointing out which dryers or washers are yours so they don't have to look through it anymore... yet they find some nasty remark to get back at you when they know they're already wrong like, "I know it's yours I'm just looking" .. hmmm... O K fine.. whatever you said.. then they act like you want to take their clothes.. I had all this and more this weekend... geez, I came here to wash my clothes, not to pick a fight... talk about issues... good thing I had my ipod with me, I drowned all of them out...
one good thing that happened at the laundromat though is I found an old classmate who's been hiding all this time hahaha.. she's been in Eagle Rock for 2 years already and I never saw her.. she knows Brian and lived with their family for a few months when they got here..and I never saw her once with them... talk about small world... Hey Layza come with us on March 1 ok...
I love doing my laundry at a laundromat every 2-3 weeks, esp when nobody's there. I know there's a laundromat at my bf's apartment and I could use that but I love it when all my clothes are getting washed and dried all at the same time, which means that I can be finished in an hour or 2 depending on the amount of clothes I need to wash, which means I don't spend all day timing the dryer and washer and going up and down 10 million times to find out that it's not yet done..
In comes the I'm in a hurry, I need alot of washers, I need alot of dryers, I need your cart women, moms, moms and kids... I usually don't bother with them... I let them be.. go do whatever but when they become rude, nasty, they start to get your stuff and try to watch over your clothes like they want to remove them out of the washer and dryer when it's not theirs pisses me off... when you want to be nice and helpful by pointing out which dryers or washers are yours so they don't have to look through it anymore... yet they find some nasty remark to get back at you when they know they're already wrong like, "I know it's yours I'm just looking" .. hmmm... O K fine.. whatever you said.. then they act like you want to take their clothes.. I had all this and more this weekend... geez, I came here to wash my clothes, not to pick a fight... talk about issues... good thing I had my ipod with me, I drowned all of them out...
one good thing that happened at the laundromat though is I found an old classmate who's been hiding all this time hahaha.. she's been in Eagle Rock for 2 years already and I never saw her.. she knows Brian and lived with their family for a few months when they got here..and I never saw her once with them... talk about small world... Hey Layza come with us on March 1 ok...
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Gym break
I just came from a long long long long long time away from the gym mwahhaa.. well not really that long but it's been a long time since I had motivation to go 5 times a week then pig out on the weekends mwahhaa..
I lost like 10 lbs before the holidays and I vowed never to gain them again but hey I'm human, the food was good and yes I stuffed my face til I gained the 4 lbs back.. some of you may say that it's easy to lose the 4 lbs it's just the water you retained, coz you drank alot the whole day and before you worked out and weighed yourself, but noooo 4 lbs for me is 4 lbs.. I haven't lost 10 lbs before.. ever.. I always lost 4-5 lbs but not 10... and this is the first time I weighed 125 since my elementary days, and that was long long long long long ago... hehehe... so this is an achievement for me.. and here is my story..
I've been putting off going to the 24hr fitness in downtown because of fear, fear of being lost( yeah like 4 blocks down 5th street will bring me to oz), fear of changing and fear of looking like a fool.. Somehow I've made Jun my crutch whenever I go to the gym, esp 24 hr fitness, I go there only when he goes coz he introduced me to that gym.. oh btw I have 2 memberships which are slurping all my money away mwehhee.. anyway, so there I was at the Bally Total Fitness in downtown on a Monday thinking I will miss all of this, the step class with Eric, walking almost 6 blocks to the gym which constitutes as part of my workout, and the feeling of being a rockstar at a gym... I love that place coz I know where things are, tho I don't really use the machines... I love being the girl who knows how to follow the difficult steps at the classes...
Oh well I don't know what I ate or what happened but I woke up today amped up about going to the gym, any gym I said to myself, as long as I go... but this day somehow I vowed to go to the renovated 24hr fitness in downtown, 4 blocks away from my office.. I browsed through the different classes and was debating on doing the 24Lift with Karla or the Yoga class in the Glendale branch.. I saw they had yoga class in downtown but it was at 5:30 and my work ended at the same time, so I said no way am I gonna make it.. but lo and behold my boss declares we could go home at 15 mins past 5 which means if I run or hurry I can still make it to the yoga class and the 24Lift class too.. yay!
So there I was sprinting my way to the gym, good thing I asked where it was coz it was in the basement of a very tall downtown building, which for the love of God I know I wouldn't have been able to find if the guy on the phone didn't tell me to just go down the stairs I see when I cross the street right after the library... It was huge down there.. no wonder people didn't just wander into the subway by our office coz they had a huge cafeteria complete with mcdonald's, a sushi place, a rice palace(served rice bowls with toppings), lots of other restaurants, a GNC and a gym down there.. I wouldn't leave that bldg if I worked there.. it was almost complete.. the only thing they lacked down there was a Macy's, JC Penny or a target hahaha.. who knows maybe they do have one there, I didn't look around... hahah...
Anyway so I was like 5-10 mins late coz I still had to change but hey I made it.. everybody had their own mats but Larry the instructor was great I just mouthed mats and he pointed where they were.. yay... I know I get happy with little things, but his yoga class was great, I felt like every muscle I had was screaming, coz they got stretched alot... so the class ended and I felt it wasn't enough.. so I decided to do the other one too.. the girls who were beside me were awesome, forgot to get their names but since it was my first time I wasnt't scared to ask around, coz for this class you needed to ask around coz everyone was taking 2 pairs of dumbells, a bar with weights on each side, the blocks you use for step class with 4 things to increase the height and a mat.. so there I was thinking it was a step class, I got the block with the least amount of height, coz I was thinking I didn't want to land on my butt on my first step class... then it dawned on me after everyone was grabbing weights, that hey this was a weights class.. so I asked and the girl helped me chose what and I in turn helped Tenisha do the same thing.. it was freaking fun, energizing and plain awesome.... this was the class I was looking for in Ballys that they didn't have.. the one that worked on your arms, your abs and your thighs.. well that probably sums up everything you need to do at the gym and they didn't have it.. yay good thing I went... now not only are my muscles stretched they are screaming as well esp my arms.. my gosh if I continue this I'd have the arms I want before summer comes yay... so there you go 1 class is enough but tomorrow is the boot camp.. I'm doing that too even though my body screams no... NO way am I going back to the frumpy me mwahhaa.. I want my old arms, thighs, waist and tummy before I came to america mwahhaa.. and no way am I going back to the 20lb over my ideal body weight me.. I have to do this.. I'm turning 30 this year.. I have to at least achieve one of my goals... to be skinny before I go back to the Philippines mwehehe...
I lost like 10 lbs before the holidays and I vowed never to gain them again but hey I'm human, the food was good and yes I stuffed my face til I gained the 4 lbs back.. some of you may say that it's easy to lose the 4 lbs it's just the water you retained, coz you drank alot the whole day and before you worked out and weighed yourself, but noooo 4 lbs for me is 4 lbs.. I haven't lost 10 lbs before.. ever.. I always lost 4-5 lbs but not 10... and this is the first time I weighed 125 since my elementary days, and that was long long long long long ago... hehehe... so this is an achievement for me.. and here is my story..
I've been putting off going to the 24hr fitness in downtown because of fear, fear of being lost( yeah like 4 blocks down 5th street will bring me to oz), fear of changing and fear of looking like a fool.. Somehow I've made Jun my crutch whenever I go to the gym, esp 24 hr fitness, I go there only when he goes coz he introduced me to that gym.. oh btw I have 2 memberships which are slurping all my money away mwehhee.. anyway, so there I was at the Bally Total Fitness in downtown on a Monday thinking I will miss all of this, the step class with Eric, walking almost 6 blocks to the gym which constitutes as part of my workout, and the feeling of being a rockstar at a gym... I love that place coz I know where things are, tho I don't really use the machines... I love being the girl who knows how to follow the difficult steps at the classes...
Oh well I don't know what I ate or what happened but I woke up today amped up about going to the gym, any gym I said to myself, as long as I go... but this day somehow I vowed to go to the renovated 24hr fitness in downtown, 4 blocks away from my office.. I browsed through the different classes and was debating on doing the 24Lift with Karla or the Yoga class in the Glendale branch.. I saw they had yoga class in downtown but it was at 5:30 and my work ended at the same time, so I said no way am I gonna make it.. but lo and behold my boss declares we could go home at 15 mins past 5 which means if I run or hurry I can still make it to the yoga class and the 24Lift class too.. yay!
So there I was sprinting my way to the gym, good thing I asked where it was coz it was in the basement of a very tall downtown building, which for the love of God I know I wouldn't have been able to find if the guy on the phone didn't tell me to just go down the stairs I see when I cross the street right after the library... It was huge down there.. no wonder people didn't just wander into the subway by our office coz they had a huge cafeteria complete with mcdonald's, a sushi place, a rice palace(served rice bowls with toppings), lots of other restaurants, a GNC and a gym down there.. I wouldn't leave that bldg if I worked there.. it was almost complete.. the only thing they lacked down there was a Macy's, JC Penny or a target hahaha.. who knows maybe they do have one there, I didn't look around... hahah...
Anyway so I was like 5-10 mins late coz I still had to change but hey I made it.. everybody had their own mats but Larry the instructor was great I just mouthed mats and he pointed where they were.. yay... I know I get happy with little things, but his yoga class was great, I felt like every muscle I had was screaming, coz they got stretched alot... so the class ended and I felt it wasn't enough.. so I decided to do the other one too.. the girls who were beside me were awesome, forgot to get their names but since it was my first time I wasnt't scared to ask around, coz for this class you needed to ask around coz everyone was taking 2 pairs of dumbells, a bar with weights on each side, the blocks you use for step class with 4 things to increase the height and a mat.. so there I was thinking it was a step class, I got the block with the least amount of height, coz I was thinking I didn't want to land on my butt on my first step class... then it dawned on me after everyone was grabbing weights, that hey this was a weights class.. so I asked and the girl helped me chose what and I in turn helped Tenisha do the same thing.. it was freaking fun, energizing and plain awesome.... this was the class I was looking for in Ballys that they didn't have.. the one that worked on your arms, your abs and your thighs.. well that probably sums up everything you need to do at the gym and they didn't have it.. yay good thing I went... now not only are my muscles stretched they are screaming as well esp my arms.. my gosh if I continue this I'd have the arms I want before summer comes yay... so there you go 1 class is enough but tomorrow is the boot camp.. I'm doing that too even though my body screams no... NO way am I going back to the frumpy me mwahhaa.. I want my old arms, thighs, waist and tummy before I came to america mwahhaa.. and no way am I going back to the 20lb over my ideal body weight me.. I have to do this.. I'm turning 30 this year.. I have to at least achieve one of my goals... to be skinny before I go back to the Philippines mwehehe...
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