The Reason

There's a reason why I don't believe in myself sometimes.. why i doubt what i know and what i say eventhough I know in my freaking heart and mind that I know what I am saying and what I am doing.. I know stuff and I'm not fucking dumb just because I work in this shithole... Just because I don't show you what I can do does not mean I don't know how to do it... it's because of people like you who don't believe me...

 Stop putting me down... I know that the first words, phrases or sentences and how tos that come out of my mouth are correct.. Please do not contradict and ask me 10 times if what I'm saying is right and if what I know is right.. Don't tell me that we'll just ask someone else again coz you are freaking making me doubt myself..



I was smart even before I met you... STOP DOUBTING ME...

StIcKWiTu

Pussycat Dolls

Oohooh ooh oohooh ooh...
C'mon!

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin')

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)

So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

Live Like You Were Dying - Tim McGraw

I LOVE THIS SONG

He said I was in my early forties
With a lot of life before me
When a moment came that stopped me on a dime
And I spent most of the next days
Looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
And talking bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank in
That this might really be the real end
How's it hit you when you get that kinda news
Man what'd you do

And he said
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Manchu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying.

He said I was finally the husband
That most the time I wasn't
And I became a friend a friend would like to have
And all the sudden going fishin'
Wasn't such an imposition
And I went three times that year I lost my dad
Well I finally read the good book
And I took a good long hard look
At what I'd do if I could do it all again

And then
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Manchu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying

Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about
What'd you do with it

what did you do with it
What did I do with it
What would I do with it?

Sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Manchu
And then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I watched an eagle as it was flying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying

To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying

I can't even feel it's Christmas

I saw this while I was browsing through my mail...

Do not rely completely on any other human being, however dear. We meet all life's greatest tests alone.

Agnes Macphail (1890-1954)
Political leader and activist

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I don't really feel that's it's gonna be Christmas in 3 weeks.. we cannot put up a tree in our already crowded house.. though we have one that's tiny and cute... I think I lost the excitement of going to the malls.. looking for that one perfect gift that you can give the people you care about.. I've been meaning to finish the projects i'm gonna give my friends but they're still stuck somewhere unfinished... hmm.. i think i need to go to the mall to feel the rush... I've been couped up at home for the last 3 days.. cleaning my room.. yes all that bathroom upgrade spread dust and plaster all over my room.. ugh...

   

anyway we're going to the mall later.. wahooo.. what will i get for myself today mwahaha...

   

sigh i still don't feel like this month is a special month...