We Must Say Goodbye - Il Mare

Release me, I know the only way
To reach me, that is the way that it should be
So free me from all your memories
I know we must say goodbye
We must say goodbye

If you belong in this world
Then I know we’ll take the step to every road
Now alone, I realize you’re far ahead
Without knowing you were there still in my heart
I know we must say goodbye
We must say goodbye

Can’t we belong in this world
Then I’m sure you’d take me to your every road
Just one thin, not realizing you were there
Without knowing you were there still in your heart
I know we must say goodbye
We must say goodbye

I know we must say goodbye
Must we say goodbye

This song's been haunting me ever since I watched the movie Il Mare.. Such a nice movie and I watched the lakehouse just to see the difference and I think the lakehouse is a cheap imitation of the movie.. they tried to change it a little which kinda made it original.. but hmmm.. they didn't really do justice to the roles they were playing.. and some parts were like.. huh are they talking to each other.. the essence of the mailbox was lost... which made it kinda cheap.. i still love the korean version.. sub titles and all.. plus the music on il mare was great.. it set the mood just right.. and the story line was simple yet you get so into it that you get moved... like my friend jun said it's amazing that benny watched this movie.. and he recommended it to us... both of us couldn't believe that a tough guy like benny would be bothering us day and night just to watch il mare... but hey my baby was moved by the notebook and he's recommending it to all his friends.. so who's to say that these guys don't get moved by movies... it just takes the right movie and you see a side of them you never knew they possessed.... thanks again benny.. =)    

Mataray

I was watching AMA and the first act was Beyonce singing Irreplaceable and all I can say is wow... Not only was Beyonce beautiful but the song was 'mataray'(snotty?, bad ass?) hahaha.. I posted the lyrics here.. the beat is nice but I think guys shouldn't be dancing to it.. you should be thinking about the lyrics.. hahaha.. girls, just do your thing and dance if you want to... the chorus says it all.. =) oh while you're at it youtube has a very nice video on it too =) and if you can watch the video they made for the ellen show she has an all female band, how bad ass is that..

to the left
to the left

to the left
to the left

VERSE 1:
mmmm..to the left
to the left
Everthing you own in the box to the left
In the closet, that's my stuff-
Yes, if i bought them please don't touch(dont touch)

And keep takin that mess thats fine,
but could you walk and talk at the same time-
And, its my name thats on that jag. so go move
your bags let me call you a cab

Standin in the front yard tellin me how i'm such a [fool]
talkin bout, ill never ever find a man like you,
You got me twisted

CHORUS:
You must not know bout me
You must not know bout me
i could have another you in a minute,
matter fact, he'll be here in a minute, baby

You must not know bout me
You must not know bout me
i could have another you by tomorrow
so dont you ever for a second get to thinkin,
your irreplaceable

VERSE 2:
So go ahead and get gone, call up that chick,
and see if shes home
oops, i bet you thought, that i didnt know,
what did you think, i was puttin you out for...
because you was untrue, rollin her around in the
car that i bought you
baby drop them keys...hurry up before your taxi leaves

standin in the front yard tellin me how im such a [fool]
talkin bout, ill never ever find a man like you,
you got me twisted

CHORUS:
you must not know bout me
you must not know bout me
i could have another you in a minute
matter fact, he'll be here in a minute, baby

you must not know bout me
you must not know bout me
i could have another you by tomorrow
so dont you ever for a second get to thinkin,
your irreplaceable

VERSE 3:
so since im not your everything,
how bout i'll be nothing, nothing at all to you
baby i wont shed a tear for you (i wont shed a tear)
i wont lose a wink of sleep (a wink of sleep)
cause the truth of the matter is
replacing you is so easy

to the left
to the left

to the left
to the left

mmmm...to the left
to the left ,everything you own in the box to the left

to the left
to the left

dont you ever for a second get to thinkin...
your irreplaceable

you must no know bout me
you must not know bout me
i could have another you in a minute matter fact,
hell be here in a minute, BABY!!!!

you must not know bout me
you must not know bout me
i could have another you by tomorrow
so dont you ever for a second get to thinkin...Baby hey yea!!!

you must not know bout me
you must not know bout me
i could have a nother you in a minute,
matter fact, he'll be here in a minute
you can pack all yo bags we finsihed,
Cause yo made your bed now lay in it
i could have another you by tomorrow
so dont you ever for a second get to thinkin
your irreplaceable....

Not ready to make nice

Sometimes i think back on things that happened in my life.. some things make me laugh, some things make me cry, some things make me remember why this is such an appropriate song mwahaha...

                  

NOT READY TO MAKE NICE

-Dixie Chicks-

      

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it

I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

comments

I rarely jump to answer comments from friends but one of my friends just sent me a msg to tell me he left a comment on one of my blogs.. lo and behold.. there it was staring me in the face.. an insult to all that I was complaining about... so here I am trying to get back at him.. ey marvin.. try reading this too...=P    

I'm sorry but they don't pay for my salary, as I explained working with them is the same as forcing a mime to speak...it won't do you any good... I could care less if he sold some of our merchandise coz out of a thousand customers he's just a spec of dust...but what's nice is that my boss cares even less...

the difference with customer care and my job is that I can meet the customers and I can associate an idiot to his attitude... what irritates them more is smart answers to stupid questions... and people who talk back.. too bad i'm not stupid..

I've acquired this attitude long before these nasty phone calls and I call it my hooker attitude... hooker is short for WHO CARES... hehehe...

as it turns out to be he just wants attention.. coz last time i was talking to him i dissed him and told him i'll brb.. hahaha.. sorry... either i had something pressing to do like ebay hahaha or my mom was using the computer that time..

RUDE

Sometimes I encounter rude clients on the phone.. I want this now, I want to speak only to your boss, why hasn't someone sent someone to bring me what I want, my customer is here  and i'm gonna lose the sale if you don't send anyone, do you want me to pay you or not... these are but some of the biting remarks that come out of their mouths, is it just sometimes or most of the time and I just let them pass 'coz I've been there, heard that, done that, done nothing and could do nothing about it... but in rare occassions I encouter the ubber rude people.. here's how the conversation went for 2 days.. i don't know where they got their tact and manners but they are surely lacking of it...

Phone conversation 1: - Tuesday

I was doing something when my nice boss interrupted me to answer a line that is on hold.. Joe put him on hold coz he had to meet his friend at the door.. I had no idea what their conversation was.. I was just trying to help..

Ollie: Hi is there anything I can help you with?

Rude guy: Why are you doing this to  me, I am not talking to you, I want Joe he was taking care of me...

O: I'm sorry but Joe stepped outside to talk to someone...

RG: I don't know why I need to talk to you, I don't want to talk to you, I need the stuff right now coz my customer is here waiting..

O: I'm just trying to help you coz everyone's on the phone and Joe put you on hold. I saw the light was blinking so I thought I could help you. Joe can't help you right now. If you don't want to talk to me you have to hold 'coz he's not here.

RG: let me talk to your boss.. LET ME TALK TO YOUR BOSS...

O: ok just hold on... who's this...

RG: I WANT TO TALK TO YOUR BOSS...

O: who will I say this is...

RG: Johnny...(yeah like I should know you.. you don't even buy anything from us..)

After this I didn't tell my boss he was on the line.. fy for screwing with my almost perfect day... hah.. he disconnected the line after 2-3 minutes.. I asked Joe who the idiot was.. he was from Gold Empire.. and my boss said it was right that I answered him back..yeah you're a rude a$$.. try to learn some phone manners... then my boss calls him and he harrasses my boss why we haven't sent him the stuff yet.. my boss told him you should have sent someone if you're really in a hurry... at least my boss said I was right.. for once.. hahaha...


Phone conversation 2: - Wednesday


It was time for me to go home but hey the phone's ringing again and yes I answered it..

O: ____ Good Afternoon!

Idiot Guy: Hi I saw your stuff on the internet.

O: Do you have a lot number?

IG: what lot number I don't have one..

O: Ok please hold let me find it for you.. I couldn't find it so I was taking longer..

IG: Hello I don't think you know what you're doing.

O: Excuse me you didn't have a lot number so it's taking longer for me to look for it. If you can tell me the lot number it's be easier.

IG: Just transfer me to a guy. I don't talk with girls.

O: My boss can't talk to you right now coz he's on the phone. If you want him just hold.

I put him on hold and I didn't tell my boss he was there... serves you right.. just hold there.. I think he was on hold for the next 5 minutes.. and I think he was calling long distance.. when finally my boss got off the other line he was gone too.. but he called back.. my boss was trying to transfer the phone to Joe coz hes getting irritated that IG didn't know what he wanted.. and I told the people there.. oh that's the idiot who said he doesn't think I know what I'm doing and that he doesn't talk with girls.. so my boss got pissed off and told IG to call back when he know's the lot number of what he was looking for.. nice...

I think I know how this goes now.. Nobody can be mad at me and shout at me or be mean to me except my boss.. which is ok for me coz i let his lectures go from one ear out the other hahaha... but it's nice for once he's standing up for me.. or is he.. hmmm...

too much for this day...

and i thought I'd get off from all the stress coz it's sat... i thought wrong.. sigh...

I don't think it ever happened before that I hated someone I haven't met before.. yes I hate you... before you came everything was ok.. families weren't in turmoil.. I don't believe any ounce of your innocent crap.. people from the provinces are smarter than you.. where did you say u grew up at again.. up there in the mountains where there are no people and there are no social skills.. all that crap you were feeding people around you are all lies.. LIAR... what I hate most about this is that people who shouldn't be affected with your money grubbing antics are not only affected but they are also upset... i hate you.. if ever i'll meet you i have a few words for you so help me don't leave me with this bitch alone.. covering up ur ass just so you can move to a much higher paying job is better than telling people the truth.. yes.. being called sweetie in this business doesn't mean harassment.. at least not where I work at.. and YOU ARE NOT THAT PRETTY FOR THE MEN IN THE BLDG TO BE OGLING AND SEXUALLY HARASSING YOU..as you are saying just to get out of your job.. YOU JUST HAVE A DIRTY MIND.. PERV... and don't you know when to gauge when you're being harassed or ppl are just being polite.. save the sob story for your mom.. and stop including us with your freaking shit... get as far as possible from me coz not only will I claw your eyes out when you piss me off again I tell everyone in the bldg you made ur stories up.. yes that's how much I hate you.. good thing I haven't met you yet and I don't have to be nice to you when I see you in downtown... up yours as they say.. i hope you don't find another job in downtown... at the rate you're going by the end of the year everyone will be wary of taking you into their office.. go study.. i'll bet anyone that before the year ends you're gonna go home... if you survive the winter here i'll bury u in the snow... mwahhaa.. yuck I sound mean.. I hate how you bring out the bitch in me... ugh

It's such a disappointment that people who come to downtown are not as dedicated as they were 5 years ago when they come into the business... all they think of is the money when they don't even know anything and common phone call courtesy and conversation has to become a task.. I think flips here in downtown paved the way too much for everyone.. everybody likes us to work for them.. yes we have varying prices but if you don't know anything stop demanding higher wages than employess who have been there longer.. life is too easy for these money grubbing fools... it's such a pity that ppl who need jobs might not get in anymore coz of the bitch in the paragraph above and ppl who ask for more money than they can give service...    

when i get pissed of I hear songs in my head.. ha ha i don't have voices.. not yet mwahaha... so here goes..

Better Off Without You - Tyrone Wells

Almost don't remember
The way it used to be
Where you used to whisper
You belonged to me
You belonged to me

Chorus:
I'm better off without you
Except for when I sleep
I'm better off without you
Besides the time I breath
I keep telling myself
Maybe one day I'll believe
That I’m better off without you
And I'd never think about you
I'm better off without you

I saw you on the sidewalk
And I'd thought I caught your eye
And I wondered if you loved him
As I watched you both walk by
As I watched you just walk by

(Chorus)

Looking at a photograph of you, you’re laughing
I'm standing by your side
I remember you were wearing my favorite perfume
How could you forget about the time you told me I was your only joy
Now when you want to smile,
What do you do, what do you do

(Chorus)

"Ain't Gonna Beg" - Fantasia Barrino

[Fantasia (talk):]
I mean i'm not gon' beg you
I see, i see you just ain't ain't actin right
It's ok


[Verse 1:]
Everytime i need someone to be there when i had me one of them crazy days (i ain't gon' beg you)
Everytime i want someone to treat like they always said they were gon' treat like (i ain't gon' beg you)


[Hook:]
Because i let you slide before
But i see you ain't gon' learn
Since you like to play with fire then imma let us burn
(boy you) ain't nothin'
(gon' miss) my lovin'
And last time was the last time so i'm through with you

[Chorus:]
No i ain't gon' beg you no more
I'm sick and tired of waitin' don't know what i'm waitin' for
Cause you know you don't treat me like you should
When you know i'm the coolest thing up out the hood
No i ain't gon' you no more
And if you not down down with this then baby theres a door
I'm usually not the type to just lay it down and quit
But alot men would get with it
So i ain't gon' beg you no more

[Verse 2:]
Everytime i wanna be wined and dined
Takin out on a friday night to spend a little time (i ain't gon' beg you)
And everytime i need some huggin' and some lovin' but it's late and i don't get nothin'
(i ain't gon' beg you)

[Hook:]

[Chorus:]

(oooo) said i'm through with being patient i ain't here for you just to come and
(take it when you wanna take it)
You took it all for granted (all that good love and all that freaky stuff)
Is all gon'
(ooo... if thats how you is) Then let me tell you this
(take your lame-o tired excuses somewhere eles) somewhere eles
Cause you thinkin i don't wanna hear it (you thinkin i don't wanna hear it)
Stay away i don't wanna get near it
Cause boy i'm movin not only that...

[Chorus]

Ain't gon' beg you to love me
Ain't gon' beg you to hold me
Ain't gon' you to pick up and take me out
I ain't gon' beg you to ice me
Ain't gon' you to want me
Ain't gon' to do things a real man about
I'm tired I'm tired I'm tired

But then again all I have to do is pop in the 2002 North American Tour of the De La Salle Chorale and everything calms down.. yes I think of mike and I'm ok.. no use bothering u with my trivial stuff.. you have enough on ur plate as it is... Love you mike...

Give me Strength

Lately I have been feeling like I want to strangle people.. Either they don't hear me or they don't listen... by now I should have acquired the 'whatever, I don't care' attitude that people have in this crazy place I work at but always when I least expect it they tend to pull at my strings and push all my buttons... all this pent up anger and frustration has been giving me headaches. Tylenol and Advil doesn't seem to work anymore so what do I do.. I pray.. that the Lord will give me enough strength to get through each day without breaking down... to say things I might regret in the future or just not to scream at anyone because of their incompetence.. sometimes I don't know if people are really dumb when sometimes they show promise of being responsible or they're playing dumb so I do their work for them.. my boss isn't here yet I feel like there's a 10lb weight sitting on my chest already.. they start as early as 9:30am... if you think about it if there's anyone to piss me off and get me angry it should be my boss coz at least he pays for me to do my job.. geez they can't even wait for him to get here... they start early and act like nothing happened... argh.. anyway while I was praying for strength I was looking for this song that goes like ' give me strength oh Lord, come and make me whole...' I didnt find it I found a better song.. something that used to inspire me when I was in HIgh School.. I loved it when we sang this during the mass.. so now as I go through this crazy day I hope this song can help me carry on...




LEAD ME LORD

Lead me Lord, lead me by the hand
And make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain
That life may bring
There's no other hope
That I can lean upon
Lead me Lord Lead me all my life
Walk by me, walk by me across
The lonely road that I may face
Take my arms and let your hadn
Show me the way
Show the way to live inside your heart
All my days, all my life

Refrain: You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay
By Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord
       
Lead me Lord Even though at times
I'd rather go alone my way
Help me take the right direction
Take Your road Lead me Lord
And never leave my side
All my days
All my life
You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay By Your guiding love
All through my life
All through my days Lead me, O Lord Lead me Lord

Back to blogging...

Yes I am back to blog again.. Hawaii was so great I didn't want to return to reality.. but alas, here I am again going about our business doing the same mundane things I've been doing for the last 5 years.. hehehe...


      


I love Tyrone Wells.... we all already know that but for the past few weeks his album has been queued first in my winamp player at work... and most of the time 'Fly' is the song that has me singing along and I think to myself.. isn't it ironic that I love to go places and travel but I'm scared of heights and i had motion sickness before, I hate turbulence, sudden inclines and declines in the road.. i don't know how you call them but they give you the roller coaster feeling when you hit them... and crazy drivers... those that stop and go, stop and go... I used to have my head between my knees all the time when we travel farther than the mall(sm,quad,megamall), school and my lola eden's house... hahaha... well i used to be dizzy alot when i was travelling and i used to be picky with my drivers.. only my dad could drive as I wanted... alot has to be said now but that's a different blog altogether hehehe...


         


so there I am in the office thinking.. before I got here I was scared about the thought of flying.. not only coz I was thinking that it's gonna be another crazy bus ride home and that I will die if the plane fails... hahaha.. but it's also that that I'm not ready to leave anything behind.. that nothings gonna be the same when i leave... I was so trapped and used to the cocoon I built around me that I was scared to find what was really out there... which wasn't bad i suppose, but my wanderlust was taking ahold of me and coming to l.a. gave me the opportunity to somehow fulfill that and open my heart and my eyes... there's so much more to see in life.. i'm doing most of the things I said I was going to do while I was still alive and yes I love to fly... I just hate sitting there for x number of hours when I could be out in the sun and enjoying it's warmth... hehehe.. Fly embodies how I feel about life.. leaving... and flying... i'm not scared.. not anymore...

Sittin' in the airport waiting for the plane to come
One man walks, one man runs
Seems to me every burden every care
Is about to slip into the air

Chorus:
Some are eager to go
Some have baggage in tow
Some just cry
I'm not ready to fly fly fly
Everybody says goodbye fly fly fly
We all take flight sometime

Sittin' in the airport waiting for the plane to come
A man regrets everything he's done
So many choices that he made along the way
Leave him alone to face this day

(Chorus)

When my plan comes and I hit the sky
And I start to fly darling don't you cry
When my plane comes I'll be more alive
With heaven in my eyes
We will meet again
Fly fly fly everybody says goodbye
Fly fly fly we all take flight sometime, sometime

Fly - Tyrone Wells

I'm back

My laptop is back after a week.. wahooooo... hehehe :D just wanted to announce that now I can play puzzle pirates again... too bad i'm the one going away now.. mwahhaa.. wahooo... see you in 5 days puter mwehehe...

One More Day

One more day... one more day 'til my trip to hawaii... I've never been this excited about a trip ever since we put our annual US state hopping trips on hold.. but now here I am again after 1 year of just staying within the confines of California.. I am going on a plane and visiting a place I haven't been to before.. I keep feeling that I'm going to forget something.. I think 5 days won't be enough for the things I want to do but hey I'll try to fit them all in there.. I know I can always go to Hawaii and use up my mileage but hey this is a first and I want everything to count hehehe..

Talk about being obsessive about taking pictures.. I bought 5 waterproof cameras with each camera having 27 shots in them.. I figured with all the snorkeling, surfing, swim with the dolphins activity we are going to do I won't be able to use my digital camera most of the time, so to capture every moment I bought 5 for the 5 days we are going to be there hehehe...

I'm so excited I wasn't able to sleep last night until 1 or 2.. I kept waking up thinking about what to pack in my already full suitcase.. yes it's full coz all my gear won't fit in there.. I took out half of the clothes I intended to bring in the first place but that portable cooler is just taking up space... which i think i'll just bring it as a carry on and put all my shoes and slippers in there mwahaha...

i wanted to skip work today too coz i'm still looking for a tripod coz I know that I don't want to be a camera girl there.. I want as much pictures as I am going to take.. I have bad experiences with these trips.. I usually end up having 25% of the pictures I take it always looks like I took them myself which is true half of the time... here are some of the reasons.... one: nobody wants to take that many pictures like I do.. two: I'm too shy to ask anybody to take my picture coz most of the time they either tell me that i take too many pictures or i have my picture taken too much.. three nobody wants to switch places with me.. blah... hahaha... so now i have to buy a tripod so nobody can tell me otherwise...

what else.. hmm i came to work early today 8:45 and it's now 10:51 and I WANT TO GO HOME mwahaha...

I'll update you guys with my pictures when I come back.. see you next week... =)

More of Tyrone Wells

I can't quite put my foot down on what I remember when I hear this song but all I can say is that I'm Happy as the Sun =)...

Happy As The Sun Lyrics
Artist: Tyrone Wells
Album: Close: Live At McClain's
      
Whenever this world gets the best of me
And it all goes wrong
I count down the hours till the time we meet
And I move along
'cause I know that when I see you I will be


Chorus:
Happy as the sun, lighter than a feather
Walking on the clouds when we are together
Every day with you just keeps getting better
The world's as it should be, when are you here with me
Whenever you leave, my heart skips a beat


Like it knows you're gone
Unless you are here, I am incomplete
Like an undone song
Only you inspire the melody in me
(Chorus)


How could I go wrong
When you are here with me
How could I be anything but smiling
(Chorus)


The worlds as it should be
When you are here, when you are here
When you are here with me

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I love this song alot.. not only 'coz it's nice but 'coz Tyrone told us a wonderful story before he sang it.. He told us about this guy's idea on how he was going to propose... he wanted Tyrone to just come out at the pier while he was on his knees proposing to his gf...coz this song is the couple's favorite song.. and Tyrone agreed to do it... while while waiting for his cue he could see the the guy was getting on his knees he started running with his guitar.. and while running he was thinking.. she might get scared why the guy was on his knees and this bald guy was running toward them.. he was funny when he was telling the story coz he said he also thought she could say no.. and if she did it would be awkward.. he said he found a way out of it.. he'd ask them, do you want to eat chicken at the restaurant.. he's such a romantic... sigh... his picture with his wife on myspace says it all..     


Seabreeze


Artist: Tyrone Wells
Album: Snapshot
            
Did I really need her
Was it just a sweet dream
Lingers in the morning
Like a melody
Over and over all through the day
I can't stop thinking about I'm feeling this way


Chorus:
She moves like sea breeze, swirling around me
The fragrance she brings hangs in the air
Soft like a whisper, she's calling me to her
These eyes have seen the most beautiful dream


We found each other, staring at the waves
Started talkin' couldn't break away
And made plans to meet tonight
Down by the pier, when midnight strikes I'm going to hold that dream near


(Chorus)
Tomorrow, surprise o'er
She took my heart with one look in her eye
To a place that feels like home
(Chorus 2x)
These eyes have seem the most beautiful dream
Oh, oh

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This I agree is a nice closing song... I want to be remembered like this.. with a harmonica player in the background too ok.. hehehe...

When All Is Said And Done Lyrics
Artist: Tyrone Wells
Album: Snapshot
         


When all is said and done
And I’m looking back upon this race I’ve run
And when my heart gives in.
I know you will be beside me precious friend
It’s just the same from the beginning to the end
When all is said and done.


If I lose my way
And I wander down this open road for days
And if the sun should fall
And the dancing we once did becomes a crawl
Let the memories move like shadows on the wall
If I lose my way.


When I’m coming home
And I walk across the bridge of death alone
I will fix my eyes
On the One who's waiting at the other side
It’s my old friend with countless others there beside
When I’m coming home


(Repeat First Stanza)

HATE SONG - Tyrone Wells

I love this guy... he has the nicest songs.. Allen are we switching CD's? mwahaha wala nang balikan? mwahha.. you can keep the CD cover mwahaha.. I think Allen's gonna write me another hate song if I do that mwahhaa... I'll try to see if I can upload his songs on myspace... I love this hate song...


Hate Song Lyrics


Artist: Tyrone Wells
Album: Close: Live At McClain's
Track: Hate Song

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This is a song about stuff that I hate
Momma always said that hate was a strong, strong word
Poppa always said that words of hate should never be heard
But I'm getting older and I just cannot lie
There are things I hate, no matter how hard I try

I hate traffic, I hate dirt in my eyes
I hate spiders, and I hate girlfriends that lie
I hate cancer, I hate cauliflower pie
But most of all, I hate my ex-girlfriend's new guy,
I hate that guy

The good book says that we should love everyone
And I'm doing my best, but it's easier said than done
This new guy was a good friend of mine before
Caught him with my girl in his mustang ford

I hate taxes, I hate stink bugs and flies
I hate rug burns, and I hate polka dot ties
I hate Mike Tyson, 'cause bite your ear then bust you in the eye
But most of all, I hate my ex-girlfriend's new guy,
I hate that guy

I was sittin' down by myself, I was having a coke
I heard someone laughing real loud at a real dumb joke
I recognized the voice so I turned around
It was my ex-girlfriend's new guy, can't stand that clown

He walked up to me with a really sorry look on his face
And he said, man I done you wrong but now she's gone and I've been replaced
I know I don't deserve to have you as a friend because I played the fool
But I'm really hurtin' man, can I just pull up a stool

So he started crying and saying how he loved that girl
She got with a new guy and it rocked his world
He asked me how I dealt with it when she dumped me
And I said, I just talked about stuff I hate man, it's like therapy
And he said, really, I said yeah, yeah, give it a shot go ahead

I hate pimples, I hate hemorrhoids and hives
I hate funerals, I hate unsalted fries
I hate Brittney spears because she never returns any of the letters that I Write
But most of all, I hate my ex-girlfriend's new guy
Wouldn't mind if someone huge fell on his head and he died
Like a bus, or a truck, or a meteorite
A hippopotamus, a rhinoceros or even a pig if it was falling from a great height
I hate that guy

Hooked on Tyrone Wells

I'm hooked on Tyrone Wells and his very captivating music...  I've been listening to his music ever since we saw him at the House of Blues last week... but I can say the live album sounds better than the regular recording.. probably coz I was at the concert and it was there that he captivated my heart and made me love his music and become one of his stalkers mwahaha..(texting ur friends from the East to watch his free concert does not constitute stalking right? so i'm not yet one...mwahaha...)

I should thank Allen for calling me last minute...when he was just 3 blocks away from my house to tell me that he's taking me to the House of Blues to watch Ernie Halter's concert with his friends there.. here's the exact conversation... Allen: Hoi may gagawin ka ba mamayang gabi? Ollie: Wala naman bakit.. Allen: mag ready ka na sasama ka sa akin manonood tayo ng concert sa House of Blues...andito na ko 3 blocks away from your house Ollie: nino? Allen: ni Ernie Halter, dali at paliko na ko sa Union... in less than 5 mins I think I was able to change my pants, put on a tank top and a blouse.. that I think was the fastest time I was able to dress up in my entire life.. not even a very important date could make me dress this fast and allen was able to do that... impressive and I wasn't even trying to impress him mwahhaa...

You can listen to his songs at www.myspace.com/tyronewells... I can provide you with the other songs if you want mwehehehe.. Yes... I am trying to convince everyone to watch their free concert.. they are on tour right now.. they have shows in Chicago and NY to name a few.. I have friends there that's why I know...hehehe... you won't regret it guys.. You'll love him.. he Yodels...

Favorite songs: Baby Don't you Change, Seabreeze, Hate Song, Dream Like New York to name a few...oh and his Yodelling hehehe... I haven't memorized the others yet so they're not yet my favorite song but I love the live CD...
Allen where are my pictures?
  


To end this blog on a very light note.. a friend sent me this picture.. enjoy...

WE = ME

WE
Pronunciation: 'wE
Function: pronoun, plural in construction
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English wE; akin to Old High German wir we, Sanskrit vayam
1 : I and the rest of a group that includes me : you and I : you and I and another or others : I and another or others not including you -- used as pronoun of the first person plural; compare I, OUR, OURS, US
2 : ¹I -- used by sovereigns; used by writers to keep an impersonal character

I just realized that working here in this power crazed office.. very often is this word used and very seldom does it really hold the real meaning.. we = us = everybody... We are printing more lists to give out to customers (translation: You are printing lists, you are printing the envelopes, you are going to put them inside, place stamps and bring them downstairs).. I really don't have any problem if they say it outright.. with a please or a can.. can you print more lists so we can give it to our customers..  please print more lists.. but no.. WE ARE PRINTING MORE LISTS.. like yeah... print it yourself mwahaha... WE NEED TO GET THE MAIL.. WE NEED TO TAKE CARE OF THIS... WE NEED TO PICK THIS UP FROM THEM.. WE NEED TO TAKE CARE OF THE BILLS... WE NEED TO FOLLOW UP ON THIS... all translates to OLLIE GET THE MAIL, TAKE CARE OF THIS, PICK THIS UP FROM THEM... WE NEED TO TAKE CARE OF THE BILLS.. WE NEED TO FOLLOW UP ON THIS... NOW, NOW, NOW... I'm not complaining about doing everything.. I'm glad to get out of the office but please.. stop announcing to the freaking office and whoever hears you that you are included in the task coz there's no way in hell do I see you doing anything that you announce US doing.. and the very classic announcement... WHO WANTS TO GO AND DO THIS.. like there is a fucking poll in the office that OLLIE will not do it.. that some lazy ass bitch will do it for me..

And please CLEAN YOUR EARS... I SPEAK ENGLISH.. not chinese, not tagalog, not hebrew and not spanish.. ENGLISH... I don't know why in freaking hell don't u understand me..

What brought this on.. my boss was on vacation again.. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't leave me with these power hungry fools.. it's like me training a know-it-all, i'm the boss when the boss is not here, i want to know everything person  everytime my boss leaves... wahhhhhhhh......... heeeelllppp hahaha...

I'M GOING TO HAWAII

It's now official. I AM GOING TO HAWAII with Jun on Sept 7 to attend Tes & John's  Wedding on the 8th. Not only are we staying there for the weekend but we are staying until Tue.. Yes I got Thur to Tue off wahooooo... mwahahaha... so now let me see how we can get cheap scuba lessons there mwahaha...

So now my dilemma is where do I find a dress.. hmmm... Let me see if I can find something orange mwehehe...
Anyone want to come? Oh I got my tickets for $1084 for 2 ppl with plane, hotel and car... so any more takers?

~Il Mare~

I forgot when Benny started bothering me about watching Il Mare.. We tried to do file transfer from his office server... we didn't succeed at that... then he gave me the link for you tube and for the past 3 days I've been sleeping on it everytime it started... well eventually last night I watched it.. with an asungot who kept sending me messages while I was watching it.. talk about me bawling my eyes and crying my heart out because of the story and my ym keeps on blinking.. asking anong part ka na..  anyway this movie 'Il Mare'(the sea) can be seen on you tube.. in 10 parts.. only bad thing about it is that i was ready to cry during the sad parts but I had to open the next one which was kind of a damper.. but all in all it was ok.. i love it benny thanks for sending it to me...  i'm gonna see if i can buy it here in Korea Town..

juniper ano sassy girl naman mwahaha...

SKY DIVING / CAMPING(?)

IT'S TIME FOR OUR ANNUAL SUMMER SKY DIVING/CAMPING(?)

VIEW THE LINK TO SEE THE INVITATION

http://www.evite.com/pages/invite/viewInvite.jsp?inviteId=MQQEYEBWQOMQVJVAJLBR&li=iq&src=email&trk=d5ei7

? - WE HAVE TO EITHER BE THERE ON FRIDAY OR BE THERE EARLIER LIKE AT 3-4 SO WE CAN GET OUR OWN CAMPSITE... IF WE CANT GET A CAMPSITE WE CAN'T GO CAMPING....GROUP CAMPSITES ARE NOT AVAILABLE ANYMORE... MAYBE NEXT YEAR...

My BEP experience...

There are 4 BEP members but I can say I am very proud of our very own APL and yes I saw him.. they were taping The BEBOT Video 4 doors from my house at the FACLA(Filipino Association in California, Los Angeles- i think thats what the acronym means) Hall where we had my brothers Ralph and John's bday last year... He signed my brother's back coz we didn't have any paper and guess what I didn't have my cam.. and I grabbed my mom's cam which had batteries which werent charged.. and by the time the batteries arrived he was too far from us to call and i think he wanted to stay more with us but the big ppl called him.. hey APL come back mwahha...well I saw him... wahoo.. way to go APL.. Will was there earlier and took piccies with the kids but we didn't see him I think he was hiding mwahaha.. Taboo was there too his hair braided up but he wasnt talking to us or signing the kids.. yes they had APL signatures on their bodies... and Fergie wasnt able to come... oh well you go APL...

oh i forgot... here's what i saw on youtube when i searched for the bebot video mwahaha... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kacdvJPxeBI&search=black%20eyed%20peas%20-%20bebot


enjoy...

there's plenty of time to be dead...

I was talking to a fellow hermit today and we were talking about taking life by the horns.. and we came across how if we ever lived by ourselves we'd have the same old car and the same old small apartment but we'd be having the time of our lives.. coz we'd be blowing off our money on trips and adventures.. its funny how we are now both on each side globe yet we still see eye to eye on things.. we each want to do what the other is doing... hes out climbing mountains..he just got back from Davao and I'm doing my water activities.. just got back from white water rafting.. it's funny when i hear him tell me that i'm a guy trapped in a womans body.. when he tells me i'm "astig" when i try to defy what he thinks about me... he always thought i was some other nice girlie girlie office mate he knew when we were in IPIS mwehehe.. he never knew i could do all those stuff i already did and still be interested in doing them again... he always tells me.. i always thought you were one of those ppl who did things only once and thats it.. you experienced it and thats it..

i think benny awakened some of my adventure genes that were sleeping.. he showed me that you don't always have to be dependent on anybody just to be able to do what you want.. sure it's fun to have alot of friends on these adventures but if you don't have anyone don't let that hold you back... relax when you can... and if you have the determination you can do it..

I was reading his blog the other day.. i think i still need some more of his determination to achieve my 110 ideal body weight.. dang if only he were my neighbor i'd be able to achieve that.. coz i'd tell him to bother me until i got up and ran with him..  until i become lazy again mwahaa... i think i lack the determination to get out of my lazy zone... i just need to be determined like benny.. 5am in the morning is an unholy hour for me but who knew benny is out already running... that is ASTIG... coz I can't get up in the morning and run like I used to before I went to NY which was like 3 yrs ago mwahaha...

oh well here's my catch phrase of the day...

benny: gotta live life...theres plenty of time to be dead

One More Week... Yahooo...

One more week 'til my next new adventure... I've been talking to some of our clients about this and most of the ppl who went white water rafting before keeps on telling me that the class 4-5 rapids are a good way to go coz that's where all the excitement is.. they say that class 1-2 is for babies and 3-4 is gonna be exciting enough to stir your blood and you are gonna want to go back for more that is why I took the Lickety Blaster so we can go 2X...and one more reason I wanted to take the 3-4 class is because I wanted Ralph to come with us too.. make him enjoy the stuff we do and not just be a spectator...

   

I am so excited.. I can't wait to be there.. hug a sequoia.. go white water rafting.. and just do nothing.. sleep in the tent and take a dip in the river, maybe get a tan... mwahaha... i'm so excited I can't even write anything inspiring mwahhaa... I will after I get enough pictures to tire everybody's eyes mwahaha...

    

Current temperature reading according to weather.com

27 AVERAGES Hi 83°F Lo 51°F RECORDS Hi 100°F Lo 35°F

28 AVERAGES Hi 84°F Lo 51°F RECORDS Hi 101°F Lo 37°F

29 AVERAGES Hi 84°F Lo 52°F RECORDS Hi 102°F Lo 38°F

   

Ppl who are coming.. see you there...

NEXT STOP

FIRST STOP: KERNVILLE, CALIFORNIA

AGENDA: WHITE WATER RAFTING WITH www.sierrasouth.com, and CAMPING BY THE KERN RIVER

DATE: May 20, 2006

I wanted to do this on my bday so I can say that I did something fun on my bday but it seems that it always either rains on my bday or it's either Holy Thursday, Good Friday or Black Saturday which means we can't celebrate until Easter Sunday...  and this year winter is trying to extend it's stay and it's taking over spring.. so instead of risking being wet inside a tent in the mountains and beside a creek where there are no trees i moved it to may... besides Jackie said it's better to go in May coz by then the rapids are better.. We, well I have decided that everybody go on the Lickety Blaster(that's the class 3 rapids twice) so we can all do it twice mwahaha.. I didn't give them a choice...mwahahaha...

      

NEXT STOP: SEQUOIA NATIONAL PARK, CALIFORNIA

AGENDA: GO TO TRAIL OF THE 100 GIANTS, NEEDLES OUTLOOK and HUG A SEQUOIA

DATE: MAY 21, 2006

NEW PET

Introducing Boinky, my new pet since I can't get one at home i just collect weird animals mwahaha.. Rinatte gave him to me as a present from her trip.. thank you... This is me at the office when my boss is being anal.. mwahaha.. what are the features of my new pet.. it squeaks like the small baby squeakies... and it's eyes roll around just like mine when i'm pissed of or sleepy mwahhaa...

I had everything planned for my birthday.. Have lunch or dinner at BJ's and order the Pizookie Party Platter that Joe told me was better than pizookie on a personal pan i know is so good coz you could order one side chocolate chip and the other side white chocolate chip macadmia and have lots of ice cream on top of the 20 inch deep dish platter it is baked on... just like a big pizza... but hey my mom kept asking if I won't have a party like before and she could cook our lunch or dinner.. I told her I wasn't sure who was coming coz it's going to be Easter Sunday when we celebrate it coz as we all know we cannot celebrate it on Black Saturday... who knows if people have plans already and with the way things are turning out lately people are too busy to go anywhere... people have stuff planned months before in advance which would mean that it would be a waste to cook food and nobody would be coming..

so i'm having a poll on who's coming.. if indeed i'm going to have a party.. but then again.. i think i'd rather go on a white water rafting trip.. i think having a party is not a prerogative when it comes to my bday mwehehehe.. i'm thinking of going on a white water rafting trip on the kern river.. don't know yet with whom but they have deals to go on it for 1hr for 3 miles at 25 bucks and 6 miles for 50 bucks so whoever wants to come.. say aye...

oh wait this is not the reason why i wrote this blog.. it's for the pizookie.. it makes me drool just thinking of the big chocolate chip cookie and the ice cream on top.. yeah i can do it any day but i'm trying to get off chocolate and ice cream for the past 16 days now... mwehehe.. so until i can have the pizookie i'll try to lure in more ppl to try it mweheh.. i think i should get something from BJ's just for telling ppl about the pizookie mwahhaa...

oh yeah i forgot i would like to thank joe for murdering the pizookie description i posted here..

Weddings weddings and more weddings...

I think my friends got the wedding bug.. well most of the John guys at least.. can we change Jun's name to John too mwahaha...just joking baby...

    

The beginning of the year came with a loud bang with the announcement of John and Tes' wedding.. I knew they were gonna be married but the official announcement came in a very nice invitation to view their site at theknot.com.. I just love weddings and the presentation and preparation that goes into it.. it gives me a giddy feeling that finally I know the people who are getting married.. and I know that they are happy and this is their time.. talking about it makes me grin.. I don't know why but when someone is happy i tend to catch it from them.. like my friends who are getting married.. anyway enough about me.. they're gonna be married in the very lovely island of Oahu in Hawaii.. with a very solemn ceremony with just family in attendance (no pets allowed - so i understand that i can't go there.. mwahaha).. just don't forget to send lots and lots of pictures ok.. Tes has been busy ever since and she has been sending me lots and lots of information about the wedding.. I'm so happy for her I just wish I was near her so I can go and window shop for clothes too.. mwahaha..

well I think I get happy coz I have a reason to go to the gym and try to fit into a size 2 dress( yeah yeah yeah i know be realistic.. you're reading my blog so just go on reading.. i was happy remember..mwahhaa...) anyway I know I'm happy fitting formal clothes on.. it makes me feel like a grown up.. I still don't feel like a grown up sometimes I feel trapped somewhere in time... I know i'm old already not too old tho coz old for me is anybody 15-20 years older than me mwahaha.. I wish I could be in Hawaii in September too mwahhaa... I wish someone would give me a ticket to go there.. 2 if they can.. mwahha...*hint hint*

      

It's gonna be an early summer wedding for John and Tins.. see I told you there's something about these John guys... Were going to Palm Springs in June.. haven't been there so this is gonna be a first... She told me to reserve the date last night.. Sorry tins I'll go tell everybody first coz I'm just so happy for you... you can tell them when and where.. mwehehe... I want pictures of your dress too tins.. send send send.. mwahhaa...

   

and our other John, Mr JT...are you planning anything soon too?

I knew it...

I knew something was gonna happen the day I decided to buy everybody (yes everybody including the mamaw) a gift for Christmas... I was thinking why not buy them something nice since in my heart I felt like this was gonna be (hopefully) my last christmas with them coz I've been praying so hard that I get what I'm waiting  for(and hopefully i get it before the year ends) and get another job.. but lo and behold.. i was right that this was gonna be our last christmas together.. but not because I am leaving.. because they are leaving me to deal with all this shit wahhhhhh... 

    

1. well our very nice salesman is leaving(ok he's not the nicest person in the planet) but things are easier since he has been around coz all the pressure has been transferred to him from me.. i don't want that resposibility anymore where i get blamed for every little thing that happens in the office.. well i still do but at least when it comes to merchandise i can say that i don't know anything about it and stop looking for reasons to blame it on me... i got 4 years of that and i think it's time to resign from that position mwahhaa.. well he alleviated at least 2 years of that shit from me and now he's leaving.. why - because the mamaw does not appreciate anything he does even if he sells alot.. no he should sell more said the mamaw... he does not see that this guy takes care of business when the mamaw wants to go on a vacation after just taking 1 month off 2 months ago... oh well he does not care... i wonder if we'll survive... calling all available jobs, i think i need a new one soon.. mwahaha...

 

2. there are only 2 filipinas in the office, one is me and the other is dory.. finally she's leaving.. i'm so happy for her.. at least one of us gets to get out of this hell hole.. which means there is hope for me... i can leave this ditch too.. sigh but i'd miss having someone to talk to everyday(talk shit that is) mwahaha...

      

oh well that's life i just hope i get out of here before all hell breaks lose mwahaha...

Deep thought of the day

"I believe love is primarily a choice and only sometimes   
a feeling. If you want to feel love, choose to love and   
be patient."   
     ---Gordon Atkinson   
    

I got this off a mailing list I signed with.. nice huh...