There's a reason why I don't believe in myself sometimes.. why i doubt what i know and what i say eventhough I know in my freaking heart and mind that I know what I am saying and what I am doing.. I know stuff and I'm not fucking dumb just because I work in this shithole... Just because I don't show you what I can do does not mean I don't know how to do it... it's because of people like you who don't believe me...
Stop putting me down... I know that the first words, phrases or sentences and how tos that come out of my mouth are correct.. Please do not contradict and ask me 10 times if what I'm saying is right and if what I know is right.. Don't tell me that we'll just ask someone else again coz you are freaking making me doubt myself..
I was smart even before I met you... STOP DOUBTING ME...
Friday, December 30, 2005
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
StIcKWiTu
Pussycat Dolls
Oohooh ooh oohooh ooh...
C'mon!
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin')
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Live Like You Were Dying - Tim McGraw
I LOVE THIS SONG
He said I was in my early forties
With a lot of life before me
When a moment came that stopped me on a dime
And I spent most of the next days
Looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
And talking bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank in
That this might really be the real end
How's it hit you when you get that kinda news
Man what'd you do
And he said
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Manchu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying.
He said I was finally the husband
That most the time I wasn't
And I became a friend a friend would like to have
And all the sudden going fishin'
Wasn't such an imposition
And I went three times that year I lost my dad
Well I finally read the good book
And I took a good long hard look
At what I'd do if I could do it all again
And then
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Manchu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying
Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about
What'd you do with it
With a lot of life before me
When a moment came that stopped me on a dime
And I spent most of the next days
Looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
And talking bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank in
That this might really be the real end
How's it hit you when you get that kinda news
Man what'd you do
And he said
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Manchu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying.
He said I was finally the husband
That most the time I wasn't
And I became a friend a friend would like to have
And all the sudden going fishin'
Wasn't such an imposition
And I went three times that year I lost my dad
Well I finally read the good book
And I took a good long hard look
At what I'd do if I could do it all again
And then
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Manchu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying
Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about
What'd you do with it
what did you do with it
What did I do with it
What would I do with it?
Sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Manchu
And then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I watched an eagle as it was flying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying
What did I do with it
What would I do with it?
Sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Manchu
And then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I watched an eagle as it was flying
And he said someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
Thursday, December 8, 2005
I can't even feel it's Christmas
I saw this while I was browsing through my mail...
Do not rely completely on any other human being, however dear. We meet all life's greatest tests alone.
Agnes Macphail (1890-1954)
Political leader and activist
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I don't really feel that's it's gonna be Christmas in 3 weeks.. we cannot put up a tree in our already crowded house.. though we have one that's tiny and cute... I think I lost the excitement of going to the malls.. looking for that one perfect gift that you can give the people you care about.. I've been meaning to finish the projects i'm gonna give my friends but they're still stuck somewhere unfinished... hmm.. i think i need to go to the mall to feel the rush... I've been couped up at home for the last 3 days.. cleaning my room.. yes all that bathroom upgrade spread dust and plaster all over my room.. ugh...
anyway we're going to the mall later.. wahooo.. what will i get for myself today mwahaha...
sigh i still don't feel like this month is a special month...
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
I can't believe
what you love most hurts you more... and most of the time they don't realize they hurt you unless you tell them...
i never thought that this could happen right under my nose.. right when everything seemed so perfect.. right when we had it all figured out... right when i thought nothing can stop us... but as all things are.. this too must come to an end..
maybe not really the end but i think it'll take time before what i'm feeling right now will be gone.. by then gone will be what was before... just like any other relationship... we need time apart.. we need to cool off... but cooling off usually does not work for me.. it's yes or no... seldom is there a maybe...
i expected too much and i can't understand.. i sometimes think i do but i don't think so.. i believe what you say even though im bleeding and you don't seem to understand me... what i can't understand is that i was here before all this happened.. what happened to us.. i feel abandoned... i feel so alone.. i hear you talking yet i can't see beyond the pain... i don't understand what you are saying..
yes i thought we were ok after last night.. i was wrong i had so much more to say... so much more to blurt out but i couldn't... not when it came to us... im still hurting.. and i dont know how to say it...
i hate it that somebody could come between us.. just when i thought we were invincible.. sigh...
p.s. im not talking about me and my bf =P
What I did today...
I tasted super glue.. not by choice... but still...
i was fixing the front door pergo thingie and i was holding the super glue cap on my mouth (which by the way i thought of already as a bad idea.. but what do i do) and somebody walks by and she wants to come into the office.. yes i talk to her while the cap is stuck between my teeth and in my attempts to clost the super glue so i can talk better while i was stepping on the pergo thingie i put super glue on my lower lip which i thought was ok since i can just go open my mouth and let it dry for awhile and peel it off.. well this wasn't my day to start with so i not only closed my mouth but tried to remove the glue with my tongue.. mwahahaha.. glue on both my lower and upper lip and now my tongue pretty smart huh.. as rinatte said.. "dumb ass"
so now i have a sore tongue where i peeled off the super glue and my lips have white on them.. and now it feels like i have glue on my teeth too mwahahaha...
super glue does not taste good.. we all know that from the smell... but what the heck i tasted super glue mwahaha...
Puddle Of Grace
Puddle Of Grace
Amy Jo Johnson
Have you seen yourself today
Could you recognize your face
Can you tell me what to say
Mine's lost without a trace
Mama can you help me please
My hero just stabbed me
With a knife that I did lend
Oh mama who's my friend
Tell me, tell me where do you go when all the diamonds have run dry
Tell me, tell me how do you feel after bittersweet goodbyes
I had almost found my face
I was almost me
But my pride couldn't swallow what I ate
Boy I hope you're happy
Tell me, tell me where do you go when all the diamonds have run dry
Tell me, tell me how do you feel after bittersweet goodbyes
How do you feel when all the diamonds have run dry
How do you feel after bittersweet goodbyes
Today I found my face
Floating in a puddle of grace
A porcelin doll with cracks to mend
Oh mama I found a friend
Oh mama I found a friend
Oh mama I found a friend
Monday, November 14, 2005
MY FIRST EVER CT
Yes Finally I decided to buy my very own Chuck Taylor... and yes I kept putting it off and off and off even though there are sales everywhere.. i think i was waiting for the right shoes.. I found one that I liked before but they didn't have my size.. but now tada... just the perfect color... 
Friday, October 28, 2005
CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN
I was going thru my mail and I ignored the Walmart email about the chocolate fountain.. it was expensive and where do I need that for...
I watched KTLA news this morning and guess what the feature story was... CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN.. there was this couple of producers both female who were showing some paintings at 262 something... and they bought a fountain for their guests but the ppl who saw it caught on and asked if they catered and stuff.. so now they have 9 fountains i think and 6 employees just for this.. and they cater too.. you can see them on www.dippedinchocolatela.com and your mouth will surely water.. yummy.. here are the pictures.. i think we are gonna get one and just get fat forever mwahaha...
Bummer
So I came in the office early again today.. I'm turning a new leaf.. I come in early so I go home early too.. dang I got out of the office yesterday at 5:20 which was 20 mins off my suggested go home time.. i know i'm being an ass about this time schedule coz the halimaw in the office as brenda and me call him is being an ass when i come in late too tho i go home what 30 mins to an hour later than i am always supposed too and not only does he not acknowledge that i go home late he makes a freaking fuzz when i get in late like the whole world is gonna crumble if i'm not in the office at 9:30... it's 9:32 now and do you hear the phone ringing all at once? NO.. do you even hear one phone ring? NO.. and he makes a fuzz that there are so many phone calls in the morning.. i need someone to help me.. yes i would gladly help someone who is nice and acknowledges what we do.. but if you are sarcastic, think that we are lazy asses here.. i think you better look at yourself and what you do in a day...
anyway its too early to get stressed... oh and the mini halimaw (our salesman) called me at 8 am asking me what time i'm gonna be in the office... helllerrrr... i just woke up and i won't get brownie points if i get in to work early you know... but it was ok.. he's always better than the halimaw... he let's me do my stuff when he doesn't need me... which he doesn't need me now.. wahooo.. actually he went to the restroom mwahaha...
Oct 8- Oct 9: Don't even remember what happened that weekend mwahahaha...
Oct 15: I think if I were not into computers, I'd be a builder or a carpenter of some sort, yeah yeah yeah i know what you are thinking, you wouldn't want me to build your house mwahaha.. but i love it... we went to mad's house to demolish and change the windows - paint - but it came down to just changing the windows coz she hired ppl to paint the house and the garage.. coz she knows they can do it better and faster mwahahaha... so we just got down to changing 6 windows coz we came in after lunch and it was late and going to rain soon.. oh i got to go on the roof too mwahaha.. i love roofs, trees and all the high places just don't ask me to come down mwahaha.. what did we do on the roof... cover the other house she took the shingles out of... yeah mads had fun demolishing too mwahaha...
so there we go we took out the grills, the old windows and we discovered the old windows had weights in them.. which gino called "the black guy" oh well you have to see them to know what I mean.. oh wait it was me, jun, mads and gino(mad's cousin who is a good carpenter and who had alot of tools) was there...
well i just hope it got done already.. holler if you need help mads... oh i like her house and the lot is big too she can make them build another house at the back and hide me there mwahaha.... she has persemones and oranges too.. yummy... my grandma wants more mads mweheheh...
Oct. 22 : Finally we went to Knotts Scary Farm..wahooo... it was so much fun just because there was alot of us and I was there with Apple, Che, Val, Kuya Chris and his sister, one cousine who had glasses I didn't get his name and Mark their brave cousin who rode with us to the Silver Bullet( which I may say made me dizzy and compared to sky diving it was puny lol... nah compared to sky diving i like sky diving better.. this thing pulls u forward, backward, up and down your seat which as mark said he felt he was gonna die 2 times when we went to the loops..i felt it was pulling me forward and i couldn't scream, squeal or whatever you call it..).. yes i screamed like a pig that's gonna be killed... fits the part huh mwahaha... anyway after the initial what is gonna happen feeling i was screaming just for the fun of it.. it was fun... then we rode the regular roller coaster and i had my hads up all the time and screaming like there was no tomorrow(i was just doing it for the kicks and to scare the other riders).. yes i know anticipation almost always makes me swallow my tongue but i love rides.. i get scared and i freeze but who cares... i can say i rode that ride and that ride and that ride... maybe i'll try sky diving again mwahhaa...
what's in store tomorrow.. i don't know we'll see i just hope it involves small amounts of food.. coz i can't take more i feel like a pig.. i know i look the part already i don't need to add more you know mwahhaa...
Thursday, October 27, 2005
One Month Tomorrow
It's gonna be one month tomorrow since I last logged in.. why... hmmm... I get more inspiration when I'm in the office, why you may ask... coz there I have to hurry and I have to hide what I'm doing and the adrenalin rush of just pressing Alt + Tab to change the screens so they won't see... the hiding adds to the rush of emotions i feel.. oh ha ang O.A. no... where am I now? in the office i got in 15 mins earlier that what was agreed upon... oh there's nobody here yet just me... yay!
Agreement: I come in early I leave early... so now I have to be here at 9 am... I know for all the other ppl who come in at 7 or 8 that is nothing but by my lazy ass standards its early to be in the office when during this time the phone does not even ring save for my boss who called me back coz i called him to say I'm here... wakey wakey.. yes i think i woke him up mwahaha.... wake up early too so you can take care of the business and give me a raise so i'd get inspiration to get in early and stay late... NOT... mwahaha...
So what have I been up to? hmmm...
Nov 30 - Oct 2: RENO ROAD TRIP
That's why I haven't been blogging for a while.. the vacation bug bit me again and my lazy ass fingers and brain is still on vacation.. I think I left it in Reno mwahaha...
Road trip members: Me, Jun, Jun's Kuya, Ate Lyn his wife and Jun's dad
Car of choice: Jun's rental car - Toyota with a Magellan navigation system that I think because of our constant disregard for the road it pointed us to was inclined to say "Idiot that's not where I want you to go" .. yes we did not listen to it.. i think after a while of letting us take the I-5 jun turned it off coz it was starting to annoy him...
We took the I-99 going to reno... it was way more smaller than the I-5 but there wasn't that many drivers taking it.. 6.5 hours later we were in Reno.. No he didn't drive 110 mph just the regular 80-90 mph... what was I doing the whole drive.. sleeping, munching on vitamin C drops coz I was feeling sick, eating chips.. no i'm not selfish i shared it with Jun coz we were getting hungry... yes Jun did not want me to drive.. I felt like princess who looked like a toad after 6.5 hours of sitting and sleeping upright (i know what you are thinking i look like a toad anyway so why am i complaining...blah to you..=P)...
Agenda: To visit Ate Edita, she had an operation..she's ok now some minor pains coz of the operation.. she came out of it so that is good for me...
Finally we were there... We went to their house and nobody was there.. the kids were in San Francisco I think competing on a water polo tournament... so where do we go.. CIRCUS CIRCUS- Buffet #1(bfast) <---numbered coz of the numerous buffets we went to... Anyway, so it was near the St. Mary's hospital so we said after bfast we were gonna go ask if his ate was there.. she was not.. She was in the Washoe(wa-shaw) Hospital.. after several games at the table and several slot machine games we visited her.. we played the money ate lyn won in one of the machines.. sadly we lost it again hehehe...oh well... ate edita was able to leave the hospital the next day...
I don't think I'd be able to fit the other days on this blog as there was too much stuff that happened in Reno.... anyway.. on with my story...
That was just Friday morning... for lunch we went to this Chinese Buffet for Buffet #2... we left Ate Edita in the hospital while we went home to change and relax... Jun's Kuya, Ate Lyn and his dad went back to the casinos to play some more and we stayed in to sleep.. after almost 24 hrs of no sleep Jun was zonked out on the sofa.. I slept in his niece's room which had the nicest canopy bed which btw i want in my room.. hint hint mom?... mwahaha... oh shoot i forgot to take a picture... anyway..
so the next day, Saturday, we woke up at 7am... why coz Kuya Armando - Ate Edita's husband wanted to go play tennis.. first golf coz Jun was there but when he learned I played tennis he wanted to go do that first coz he said he doesn't have tennis buddies and he was gonna be playing on Sunday so he wanted to practice so there we go Tennis after 4 yrs of rest made my already painful elbow hurt more mwahaha.. but it was good.. i learned that indeed I know how to play but sometimes my hits were too hard.. I just need practice... which makes me think.. ey mom want to go buy tennis rackets.. wink wink.. i'll teach you how... =P we need alot of balls too.. after tennis we went to pick up Ate Edita.. bfast at the hospital ( roast beef sub yummy).. then off to the house to drop her off then we went to the driving range to try and play the game of as Jun called them fools before.. coz he said why would u want to hit the ball and go after it just to hit it again.. mwahaha and now he's hooked and he doesn't call golf that again.. mwahaha.. his kuya virgilio i think was his name.. i forgot.. came with us and he is a good golfer.. he doesn't really own any clubs or play weekly but he kept watching the golf tours and viola he picked up stuff from them.. one time he even beat the golf buddies who invited him... i bet they thought he was an easy kill but good for him he showed them mwahaha... i love happy endings mwahha.. so he was teaching us how to do it.. due to my already painful elbow i wasnt able to hit very hard and i didn't want to add more injury to it so i stopped after a few tries.. next time i'll rest my elbows and arms so i can go golfing again.. mwahaha.. lunch was at their house.. it felt like a buffet too.. coz there was alot of food.. and there was fruit too.. so we call this mini buffet #3.
Off to the casinos they went while we stayed at home.. good thing we did too.. coz we were in the other room going on joufika's computer and i heard ate edita moaning.. i thought she was crying... so i told jun to go see to her.. maybe she was sad or something.. he just hollered.. and she woke up she said she was having bad dreams... that she was so mad or something... good thing we were there...
Alfyn and Joufika was returning from the competition and we were going to meet them somewhere.. so we went to the Peppermill Hotel and Casino to pick the casino crew for dinner..the buffet was closed so we went to Macaroni Grill instead which was a good choice since I haven't beent here before..I've been wanting to go there for so long..and now yay.. I had the Chicken Cannelloni - Hand rolled pasta stuffed with roasted chicken, cheese, spinach and baked in an Asiago cream sauce. Topped with red sauce. hmmm.. yummy... it was so good.. and so was their bread.. mmmm... we played squares on the table.. as you all know those who have been there you can write on the tables while waiting.. and we were just like kids.. me, jun, joufika and alfyn played squares and i won coz joufika kept giving me squares mwahaha.. so off to the house we went.. we dropped off the casino crew so they could play more.. and we were gonna wait for them to call us to pick them up.. so for the 4th or 5th time we were gonna watch Rex Navarrete's Hella Pinoy DVD.. oh yes we love it alot... and we are gonna go buy more DVD's mwahaha.. Joufika and Alfyn loved it too.. it was so hilarious.. which reminds me i need to go and find more dvds from him mwahahaha....
Sunday.. time to go home.. one more Buffet before we go.. Bfast Buffet #4 mwahaha yeah I know I freaking ate alot... and it shows too mwahaha.. so off we went to Peppermill to pick up the casino crew and have bfast.. and as usual i stuffed my face until my tummy can't take no more mwahaha.. lesson learned.. never go near the buffet table coz I can't stop eating mwahahaha... So off we went.. back to reality... back to the boring old job.. sigh.. and i thought we were gonna go see Lake Tahoe.. next time... maybe I'll go camping there mwahaha....
continuation tomorrow....
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
ASIANS / PACIFIC ISLANDERS
I always knew that people from Asia are warm welcoming people..of course I speak in behalf of the Filipino ppl too hehehe.. They are open, nice, hospitable and accommodating.. and most of the time they are like that everwhere they go... and I am glad that we were raised to be nice people...
I know I can't stop talking about the people from the Almansor and the Eagle Rock High School Gym... and I know all I talk about these days is volleyball... I think jun is getting tired of me raving and chattering about how nice people are.. well how can you not say they are nice after what we experienced in the ROOSEVELT HS VOLLEYBALL GYM... those people are just plain RUDE...
Why the title well most of the population in Alhambra and Eagle Rock is comprised of Asians/Pacific Islanders and all I can say is kudos to you.. They practice good sportsmanship and just plain being nice... There was just this one guy in Alhambra that irks me.. he was just way too competitive and belittled our capabilities to play volleyball.. we know where the ball is and how to hit it.. you don't have to take our spot... that said people are still nice and he was nice too.. mwehehe.. so we have Tuesdays at Eagle Rock and Sundays at Alhambra.. we are still scouting for Mondays, Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays..mwahaha are we getting freaky at this.. NO we just want to get better in our game and learn how to spike.. this girl yesterday was so tiny yet she hits so hard.. dang i want to be able to do that..
so all in all i think the world still has a chance.. we are not doomed.. there are still alot of nice ppl everywhere.. except in the ROOSEVELT HS GYM mwahaha.. sorry for ppl who come from there... when I get bad experience with a place it stays with me.. so screw you and your gym... mwehehe...
Friday, September 23, 2005
Why am I still awake?
I really don't know why I can't sleep... My arms and my feet hurt like hell but sleep is not visiting me.. I slept for 5 mins. after talking to apple but that's it... when i woke up to remove my contacts and prepare to sleep i was more awake than before.. so here I am blogging and bothering you.. I was watching Oprah and Kelly Clarkson was singing Because of You and I loved it so here I am sharing it with you coz finally sleep has settled on my arms mwahaha... enjoy...
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
Because of You - Kelly Clarkson
EXCUSE ME FOR BEING RUDE
As Apple said yesterday... my mom taught me how to share... yes ppl of the world and the good united states of america we the filipino people know how to share, how to interact with new comers and how to talk to ppl when ppl talk to us... we are not snobs and hogs... hogs = pigs = swine = a selfish, gluttonous, or filthy person b : one that uses something to excess.. no we are NOT SELFISH...
So why all this hullabaloo? I emailed this guy coz he was in charge of the volleyball open gym in Roosevelt HS... the site said to email ppl listed there so we would know if the schedule changed... so out of courtesy to the organizer I emailed him coz we were gonna play there for the first time, i asked him for the sched and if we needed to reserve a time to use the gym.. so he replied that it was open to everybody and the sched was from 6:00 - 9:30 pm, they usually played 2 on 2 then 6 on 6 depending on the number of ppl there... so i was like ok.. there's gonna be 4 of us and we need 2 more so probably someone else will join our group.. so off we went me, apple, che and my mom who i picked up from a nearby school... so we were ther watching the first batch play.. so i was looking for this fernando guy and i approach this snob sitting across the court from us thinking that ppl there might be friendly.. he doesn't know who fernando is and he just hmms and ahhs and yeses and hmmms again... so i was like ok it was time for me to go and go back to our little spot across the court... and finally fernando approaches and tells us to just grab a ball... ok so there's improvement... OR SO WE THOUGHT... that's where all their friendliness ends.. go grab a ball and play in the corner...
so we play amongst ourselves for a while.. when we got tired from playing and from laughing at each other we sat down and talked some more... and started staring the ppl down.. why do this you may ask.. they played one game after another after another after another after another... they were just rotating players when they got tired... we know we are out of practice and we don't know how to spike and do the killer moves they do but i don't know if they had been in our court and emailed one of us we'd let them play after one game so they'd get a feel of the court... he even left early without even saying goodbye to us coz I think he got ashamed of what they were doing to us...
THEY LET US PLAY 15 MINS BEFORE THE GYM CLOSED... when we were already tired, tired to even get the ball across the court properly to finish a game...we were nice enough to give them their ball when it went near us before we were getting pissed off... but after the who knows how many freaking selfish games they played we let them freaking run after their own ball...get tired you #$%^&*( !$^&* mwahaha... and yes i had the guts not to look back and say thank you.. i wanted to say SCREW YOU! #$!& YOU SELFISH BASTARDS! I wanted to complain to the volleball organization but who knows who will kill me, stab me or beat me up if i do... so here you go I'll just do this here and bother everyone on my list mwahaha...
So there you go EXCUSE ME FOR BEING RUDE...
WHAT WOMEN SHOULD NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR - from Quincy
1. Never apologize for pursuing what makes you
happy. Even if you need to quit your job, transfer
schools, or move across country, always do what
you really want.
2. Never apologize for using proper English.
Keeping it real doesn't mean speaking Ebonics.
3. Never apologize for giving your best in a
relationship that just didn't work out.
4. Never apologize for being successful. Only
haters want to keep you at their level.
5. Never apologize for crying. Wear waterproof
mascara and express yourself.
6. Never apologize for ten pounds you need to
lose. People who truly care about you will accept
you as you are.
7. Never apologize for being frugal. Just
because you save your money instead of blowing it
on the latest fashion emergency doesn't mean
you're cheap.
8. Don't apologize for being a single mom.
Babies are a blessing.
9. Never apologize for treating yourself to
something special. Sometimes you have to show
yourself some appreciation.
10. Never apologize for leaving an abusive
relationship. Your safety should always be a
priority.
11. Never apologize for keeping the ring even if
wedding bells won't chime.
12. Never apologize for setting high standards in
a relationship. You know what you can tolerate
and what simply gets on your nerves.
13. Never apologize for saying NO.
14. Never apologize for asking for what you want
in bed. If you don't, then who will?
15. Never apologize for wearing a weave. You
bought it so it's yours.
16. Never apologize to your new friends about old
friends. There's a reason she's been your girl
from day one.
17. Never apologize for ordering dessert. Or
more than one dessert.
18. Never apologize for dating outside your race.
Just because you found Mr. Right across the color
line doesn't mean you don't love your brothas.
19. Never apologize for not knowing how to cook.
Even if you can't burn like Grandma you know how
to order good take out .
20. Never apologize for your taste in clothes.
It's your style.
21. Never apologize for changing your mind.
22. Never apologize for making more money than
your man, you work hard and you deserve to get paid.
24. Never apologize for being you! "KEEP YOUR
HEAD UP AND KEEP MOVING FORWARD"
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
It's Official
It's Official... summer had ended today.. no more perfect sunny mornings.. no more hot summer days on the beach... no more boogie boarding.. no more sun bathing like seals mwehehe.. no more kayaking... no more jogging out in the parks.. no more...
i love rainy days when you don't have to go out and go to work.. i love rainy days/ winter in california only when you can snuggle up with someone or if not just lie under the sheets and watch movies all day every day mwehehe......which makes me think... movie marathon... wahoo...
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Something to Ponder on
ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.
FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.
EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someon e sneeze.
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson
SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
SUPERNATURAL
I love watching scary movies especially when i can scream alot mwahaha...but i love them with happy, crazy or scary endings... but this show last night was way too freaky it left me scared even after it was done.. i mean i was ok when i was in my room.. i had the lights open but when i got outside i thought they were watching the same show... but nooo.. everything was pitch black.. nobody was even awake... the story...
this is one good theory for the scary white ladies.. the woman in white... white woman.. girl in white.. she is everywhere.. she is in different countries... we all have her... she is a mother who's husband/bf is or was unfaithful and she couldn't live with the fact and she kills herself and her spirit does not rest... this story is the same as the above but out of grief she kills her children and not being able to live with the thought that she killed them she kills herself too.. she either jumps off a bridge.. drowns herself or hangs herself... she then haunts the place near her house and tries to lure in unfaithful men by riding with them at night asking them to take her home... they do and after that they are never to be seen again...
this made me scared to go out and drive at night.. what if somebody asks for a ride.. i know the gym is what 15 mins away... and it's all lit up from there to my house.. but what if... i remembered the bridge area where me and che got lost going home before her bday... i got lost at that place once before but i never passed that part of the road where there was no freaking street light and it was zig zaggy... you could only rely on your headlights... it was a long stretch of road.. and it went under a bridge which had no sign whatsoever... it was scary... but we got home in one piece so we are ok.. wahoo...
but this show made me think.. there goes a good story for unfaithful men mwahaha... you should be scared.. be very scared.... one of these days the white lady will be after you riding in your car asking for a ride home then that will be your history... mwahaha....
i know i'm blogging again.. shhh....
13 THINGS ONLY GIRLFRIENDS UNDERSTAND
1.) Emergency calls at 3:00am.
2.) No matter how many times we watch the same tearjerker, we'll always weep in the same scenes. (iyakin kami e bakit ba mwahaha..)
3.) Why shopping is forever therapeutic. (it's good for tiding away your hunger too...)
4.) That we'll never be too old for slumber parties.(like every other weekend mwahaha...)
5.) The difference between 110 & 111 pounds!
6.) Why we have to go to the bathroom in packs.(to talk about the idiots out there mwahahha..)
7.) Why we can leave anything & everything at home, except our "kikay kits". (i think we should add our cellphone here too...)
8.) Why we can never own too many pairs of jeans.
9.) Why we feel naked without our earrings. (which i always leave at somebody else's house hahahaha...)
10.) How we can spend a whole day together & still have tons to talk about on the phone. (mwehehehe and to think tinutulugan na kami ni papa val hehehe...)
11.) Knowing exactly what kind of pick-me-up you need-whether it's a hug, a bar of your fave chocolate, or tadaah...SHOPPING!!!
12.) That no matter how many malls you scour for the perfect present, the best gift you can ever give anyone is still the gift of FRIENDSHIP. (or surprise parties hehehe...)
13.) And that boyfriends come & go, but real friends? They'll never (ever!) leave your side... :-) (and will always be there to grill that bastard mwahaha...)
Monday, September 12, 2005
And the blogging starts again...
After a week or was that two weeks of slacking off.. well i wasn't really slacking off.. i was always being kidnapped... but today we lie low.. not because we want to but we have too mwahaha...
What has happened for the past weeks? let me give a recap...
oh before i do my recap dang i thought i was gonna die when my other baby..i have 3 btw... jun, my car and my laptop hehehe... so my baby the one i use to write this with had a blank screen when i tried to open it... i tried rebooting it then nothing... and reboot again still nothing on the screen... i was starting to panic when i couldn't see my small tools.. i knew it was just the battery.. i had this problem before with our office laptop.. its usually the battery... so finally i remembered i had this emergency tool kit for my car which until now is still here in my room.. and yay here i am.. inspired to write stuff again... oh i was thinking about it the other day.. i think i write good when i'm depressed, happy or just went through either of those 2 mwahhaa... so here goes...
AUGUST 14: MY DAD'S BDAY
August 20: MYRA & KIKO'S WEDDING
August 27: SCORPION ISLAND TRIP
after months of planning... calling and bugging island packers and channel island kayakers we were finally there... wahoo... kayaked for 2 days on crazy windy waters... snorkelled with the kelp and the seaweed (too scary for me but jun did...i just stayed where it was clear of all those stuff i felt were gonna eat me mwahaha...)..oh but i saw sting rays, schools of fish - small gray and big gray ones... 
no my weekends are not booked mwahaha... they are just semi-full mwahaha...
September 4: Labor day - TEMECULA WEEKEND with Tita Elvie and Tito Charlie
September 10: CHE-ANNE's SURPRISE BDAY
I think I'm at a loss of words for this day.. It was one crazy week... we didn't know who to call and who to invite so we asked che out for dinner telling her that we are gonna start her bday on thur so we can get phone numbers from her phone... we ate at claim jumper just to get the free ice cream cake mwahaha... so there we go we let her get the salad so we can get phone numbers... oh the phone numbers were easy but the calling was hard.. apple and i were on the phone brigade... we talked to ppl we didn't really know and didn't really know if they knew che, che-anne, cherry, cherry-anne... whatever they call her out there.. so we got some mishaps here and there.. wendy ( knowing that she was a girl) turned out to be a guy named randy.. who according to che and julie they started naming wendy coz julie sounded like a guy when she lost her voice and he was teasing her.. so there you go.. that's the last time i'm doing that to ppl who has too many ppl on her phonebook... blah.. mwahahaha.. as if i'd stop with che mwehehe... here are some piccies from her bday...
Friday, September 9, 2005
-TRYING OUT MY PATIENCE-
I try not to blog in the office anymore.. I realized that work is work and I don't want to give these fucked up ppl here a reason to pin on me..that i'm not working and stuff like that.. i hate that they accuse me of stuff.. but today i will not care.. this bitch keeps on trying my patience.. she's always rude when i use my phone for personal calls... it's my phone u damn bitch.. do you hear me complain when you use the company phone to call all your fucked up relatives? NO.. but I do this once in a while.. talk to someone on the phone when the bastards are not here.. and what does she do.. she either asks me for stuff while on the phone or asks me something after.. and she won't follow up on that i have to catch on.. fuck you... stop bothering me.. you are not my boss.. bitch... i'm done with all your bitching and whining.. you are now in my blog for the second time.. and i've had it.. i shouted back.. i heard her talking on the phone and telling my boss that i didn't know anything, which i didn't coz she didnt tell me what she fucking needed... and the rest she said in hebrew.. fuck you... i don't care.. FIRE ME.. please... i hate this job..
Thursday, September 1, 2005
~Please don't forget my bag~
PLEASE DON'T FORGET MY BAG
Spanish: por favor no se olvíde mi bolsa
French: s'il vous plaît ne pas oublier mon sac
German: Bitte vergessen Sie meinen Sack nicht
Italian: per favore non di dimenticare la mia borsa
Dutch: Vergeet alstublieft niet mijn zak
Portuguese: por favor não esquece-se minha sacola
Russian: пожалуйста не забудьте мой мешок
Norwegian: behag ikke glemmer min sekk
Simplified Chinese: 请不要忘记我的包
Traditional Chinese: 請不要忘記我的袋
Japanese: 私の袋を忘れてはいけない
Korean: 나의 부대를 잊지 말라
Tagalog: Pakiusap huwag mong kalimutan ang aking buslo, tampipi, supot, balutan, bayong, sako.
mamili ka dyan.. basta wag mo siyang kalimutan mwehehe.. mami-miss ka namin isang buwan din un.. wala kong kukulitin mwahhaa... ingat ka sa India at Pinas Tes *mwah*
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Why do I bother
Why do I bother?
I watched One Tree Hill again tonight.. I know I hate that movie after that slut ran away with you know who.. I know I'm trying to keep names to myself coz eyen hasn't watched that part yet... but I think I only watch it coz of brooke.. i love that girl.. how she looks.. how mean she is.. and how sweet she can be to her friends.. I think I see myself in her mwahaha well not the mean part.. i never called anyone geek to their faces except when they know im joking... and when they can tell me to f*%k off hahaha... I love how luke and brooke are married irl and how their story is unfolding in tree hill... gosh i love that asian/pacific islander guy who i think is a filipino... he's so yummy and he's got that umph hahaha.. did i mention i love men with dark colored skin and who are confident and look like they can carry on the world... mwehehe.. .that's why i love my chocolate bear.. hehehe... =) oh back to tree hill... oh well i always knew the asian girl was a dike.. even before they spray painted paytons locker... uhm can't you get it... anyway so there you go.. i love brooke hahaha...
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
4 days to go...
Wahoo... I'm so excited and I don't know if we have everything we need.. we have 4 days to make and prepare everything.. oh did i mention.. I DON'T HAVE A GOOD CAMPING BAG...mwahaha...will I buy one... hmmm.. I don't know.. any donations? mwehehehe...
Anyway here's the weather forecast for Aug 27 and 28... I wonder why it's different from the monthly weather forecast
10-Day Weather Forecast
| Sat Aug 27 |  | Sunny | 73°/61° | |
| Sun Aug 28 | | Sunny | 72°/60° |
Monthly Weather Forecast
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So tell me now... who should I believe?
Friday, August 19, 2005
I wont worry my life away
I saw fireworks from the freeway and behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
Cause you were born on the fourth of july, freedom ring
now something on the surface it stings
that something on the surface it kind of makes me nervous who says that you deserve this
and what kind of god would serve this? We will cure this dirty old disease
if you've got the poison I've got the remedy
the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious. Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how youre gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end.
I wont worry my life away.
I wont worry my life away.
I heard two men talking on the radio in a cross fire kind of new reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
they were counting down the days to stab the brother in the be right back after this
the unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh death breath is sure to outlast his catastrophy
dance with me, because if you've got the poison, I've got the remedy
the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious. Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how youre gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end.
I wont worry my life away.
I wont worry my life away.
When I fall in love I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why
Because
the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious. Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end.
I wont worry my life away.
I wont worry my life away.
I wont and I wont and I wont
Remedy - Jason Mraz
Thursday, August 11, 2005
17 Days to go...
Projected weather on our kayaking trip... I know it's 3 weeks away but I'm eeexxxxcccciiiiittteeeeddd... hahaha... way too excited for my own good hehehe...
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What is gonna happen on the 27th? I was browsing on the net.. i remembered that somebody sent me that Mars is gonna be as visible as the moon on this day... lo and behold what do i see... IT WAS A HOAX... so there i just hope there are meteor showers at that time so we can go star gazing.. that is if we can still wake up after kayaking the whole day and hiking... mwahaha... dang 17 days to go... wahooo...
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Take me to the ball game...
Take me out to the ball game
Take me out to the crowd
Buy me some peanuts and cracker jacks
I don't care if I ever get back
And it's root, root, root
for the Dodgers
If they don't win, it's a shame
Cause it's one, two, three strikes
You're out
At the old ball game
It was my first time to watch the dodger's game and it was so cool... I was just stupid not to bring my cam so I have no pictures.. next time next time... oh the tickets were free courtesy of tita precy.. tita cely's friend..apple's mom mwahhaa.. speak about being connected huh...
what did we do there aside from eat low fat carnation chocolate malt... drink water... watch the game a little.. they were selling us out by the way... oh what's new.. hehehe.. seventh inning stretch... we sang the song above.. or they did i just stretched and lip synched... and then we got free shirts... courtesy of chase... we filled out application forms for credit cards... oh brenda i murdered ur last name mwehehe... and i used my nick on resort mwahaha... and did i tell you i got 2 shirts 
speaking of bday and surname and ssn they asked us those on the second try... and good thing i did the same thing... orig bday, mom's maiden name,and jumbled ssn mwahaha.. but guess who faltered and scared the shit out of me... so i memorized the stuff before i gave it to the girl...speak about inventing and this is just for a free shirt mwahaha... ok i won't tell you who it is... but ppl always get in trouble because of this mwahhaha...
http://www.geocities.com/EnchantedForest/Cottage/3192/Ballgame.html
Thursday, August 4, 2005
EveRyThInG HaPpEnS fOr A ReAsOn
EveRyThInG HaPpEn fOr A ReAsOn
Message: Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck.Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all
occur to test limits of your soul.
Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones.
If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.
If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things.
Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again. Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to.Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no
one else will believe in you. Create you own life and then go out and live it.
Share this with anyone whom you believe has made a difference in your life!
Wednesday, August 3, 2005
~`~ Jello Shots ~`~
Alcoholics we are not... Experimental drinkers we are... what have we tried so far....Rum and coke or 7up, margarita, tequila shots, vodka shots, bacardi shots --- we have tried them in the confines of our homes.. err tes' and apple's that is hehehe....
Jello Shots have been popular for a long time now.. we hear them mentioned on tv for parties...it seems like a cool drink, shot or dessert or appetizer... whatever ppl want to call it we haven't tried it... so it's next on our agenda... going online i found alot of sites that offered recipes for this concoction.. but www.drinkstreet.com caught my eye.. not only does the site look cool but the drinks look easy to make... i grabbed a few recipes and i'm posting them here... we're gonna try this on the next sleep over with apple...
Jello Shots
6 ounces Jello (large package)
16 ounces Water (boiling)
6 ounces Water (cold)
10 ounces Vodka
Mix the jello mix with the boiling water until the powder is fully dissolved and add the cold water and alcohol. Pour the cooling mixture into either shot glasses or paper cups. Shot glasses are more attractive, but drinker can turn the paper cups inside-out to more easily eat the alcoholic jello.
Margarita Jello Shots
6 ounces Lime Jello (large box)
16 ounces Water (boiling)
6 ounces Tequila
2 ounces Triple Sec
1 ounce Lime Juice
1 ounce Water (cold)
Mix the jello mix with the boiling water until the powder is fully dissolved and then add the rest of the water and the alcohol. Pour the mixture into either shot glasses or paper cups. Shot glasses are more attractive, but the paper cups are easier to eat from.
Carribbean Blue Jello Shots
6 ounces Berry Blue Jello
16 ounces Water (boiling)
10 ounces Water (cold)
6 ounces Light Rum
Mix the jello mix with two cups (16 ounces) of boiling water until the powder is fully dissolved and then add the rest of the water and the alcohol. Pour the mixture into either shot glasses or paper cups. Shot glasses are more attractive, but the paper cups are easier to eat from.
Rum and Coke Jello Shots
6 ounces Cherry Jello
8 ounces Cola (boiling)
8 ounces Cola (cold)
8 ounces White Rum
Mix the jello mix with the boiling cola until the powder is fully dissolved and then add the rest of the cola and the rum. At this point, you may wish to stir the mixture again until the bubbles begin to subside. Pour the mixture into either shot glasses or paper cups. Shot glasses are more attractive, but the paper cups are easier to eat from. This mixture will take slightly longer to set than the traditional jello mixture.
Outside we have tried Tequila Shots and Pomelo w/ Gin (from the drunkards back home hahaha..i miss you guys), Bottled Vodka Drinks (Jun and the IPI gang), Smirnoff Triple Black(Jovie the expert), Tom collins (tes told me about this), long island iced tea(very popular i think the bumbay boys and girls got me hooked on this one), sex on the beach (care of ate kat), mudslide (care of brenda).... what we are gonna try next... stoplight shots(care of tes), Blowjob(very popular) and one of those flaming things mwahahha...
So gimik buddies: Apple, Che-Anne, Val, Jess, K.Bong, Mitzi, Mads, TIns where do we celebrate this... hmmm... mitzi? we need to go out..i know...may utang pa kong gimik sayo mweheheh.... Ey girls do you want me to arrange a ladies night out? Sat para ok lang wala tayong mga pasok the next day... mwehehe.. tes sama ka dali...
Tuesday, August 2, 2005
*|^ HAZEL *|^
Hazel, dirty blonde hair
I wouldn't be ashamed to be seen with you anywhere
You got something I want plenty of
Ooh, a little touch of your love.
Hazel, stardust in your eye
You're going somewhere and so am I
I'd give you the sky high above
Ooh, for a touch of your love.
Oh no, I don't need any reminder
To know how much I really care
But it's just making me blinder and blinder
Because I am up on the hill and still you're not there.
Hazel, you called and I came
Now don't make me play this waiting game
You've got something I want plenty of
Ooh, a little touch of your love.
HAZEL - BOB DYLAN
I saw the lyrics of this song online... I don't know how it is sang but I think it's cool... appropriate or not?
Monday, August 1, 2005
=-+Senti+-=
I never knew that one blog could generate different replies... My number 2 post caught too much attention from people... well i don't know if it hit the right person i was aiming for but I hope it did.. hahaha... anyway... senti music for now...
Till I Met You
Composed by Odette Quesada
I never dream
'Cause I always thought that dreamin' was for kids,
Just a childish thing
And I could swear
Love is just a game that children play
And no more than a game.
Till I met you,
I never knew what love was
Till I met you,
This feelin' seems to grow more everyday
I love you more each day
I believe you
I believe in every word when you say
'I love you all the way'
Now I could swear
Love is not a game that children play
So tell me you'll stay
Till I met you,
I never knew what love was
Till I met you,
This feelin' seems to grow more everyday
I love you more each day
You and I should be together
Can't you see?
Can't you see?
Till I met you
Thursday, July 28, 2005
NUMBER 2
hmm... did I catch your attention? yes huh?
In this world of truth and lies we will always know someone who will be a cheater, a liar and a 2 timer... yes they are the people we least expect them to be... they seem nice and they neither look drop dead gorgeous or the type who will have 2 gfs at 1 time... i do not know if they do this coz they want to be assured that they will be loved whatever happens... that somebody will be there for them come what may.. but whatever your F*&^%$g reason is... You are a selfish bastard who doesn't deserve to be loved by anyone... whoever is the number 2 who knows you are with someone and they still go with you F.U. too.. karma will come back 3x more than you expect... no i'm not hexing you but as Beyonce sings...WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND... WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN...
Kudos to the ones they left behind.. aren't you glad you didn't end up with them.. aren't you glad you got hurt once and that will be the end of it.. that you will once again find what is better for you... when God closes a door he opens a window so the robbers can come in mwahhaa... joking aside.. better things will come...
oh that's not why i wrote this blog.. mwahaha i got side tracked...
Yes, I have a number 2 - BLOG that is... www.xanga.com/olliemau
I'll try to see if I can keep up with these 2 sites.. I was just thinking of cutting and pasting on both hahaha.. no fancy shmansy hahaha.. and you thought I was so talented mwahaha... see you guys there... comment there too ok...
---Fallen --- Sarah Mclachlan ----
Heaven Bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I tried my best
But somewhere long the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
But the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
We all begin out with good intent
When love is raw and young
We believe that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our back the burdens time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
Heaven bend to take my hand
I've nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to these I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
That it's one wrong step one slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem away to be redeemed
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
=== 7 DAYS ===
Main Entry: slack·er
Pronunciation: 'sla-k&r
Function: noun
: a person who shirks work or obligation; especially : one who evades military service in time of war
has the slacker gone loco? has the slacker become industrious? i don't think so... i think the energizer bunny inside has lost its energy... it has gone kaput.. well not exactly kaput but it's sorta going out soon...
July 21 - Thursday - hmmm what did we do on Thursday..oh yeah it was Kulit's bday.. che asan ang mga pix? we surprised him with an ube macapuno red ribbon cake.. was it his favorite? i don't know.. we chose it coz thats what we want to eat mwahaha.... talk about bringing a gift you always wanted mwahaha... it was nice and fun...Nakita ko din si tatay... kamukha ni kulit pero mas deretso mag tagalog mwahaha.... happy birthday ulit...
July 22 - Friday - kidnapped apple again... talked our hearts out again.. then after that laughed til we dropped... i swear, as apple said 'nagkakaroon na ko ng abs sa kakatawa'....i'll let you know what happened some other time mwahhaa... ryt leng?.. i met jun afterwards.. they were going to vegas and i couldn't come.. talk about responsibility...
July 23 - Saturday - made my way to Anaheim at 5pm.. it was a long slow, strenuous, tiring drive... had to do it anyway so i can be nearer Irvine...y? for the Megadeth concert on Sunday...John was gonna watch it and I had to be his driver... oh we had to get there early coz he was meeting Marvin and friends for a recording? or practice... anyway we were staying at mommy's house too for the weekend so all things fell into place... watched 5 people you meet in heaven.. they hated me for it coz it's a very sad movie and it put everyone in a sad mood.. mwahahah.. my batteries were low already so i wasnt too much into the games.. but of course margarita satrudays boosted me up mwahaha... toy for the day: kung bong.. mwehehe.. we were playing 1,2,3 pass and he was playing poker on his own hahaha.. it's nice to make fun of drunk ppl mwahaha... oh did i tell you i didn't sleep until before 8 am... coz as usual my slave driver - john ray needed to go to annie's house so early and i didn't want to sleep and not be able to wake up ... which was a very bad idea... i was a zombie the next day mwehehe... favorite place to be: anaheim...
July 24 - Sunday - was supposed to watch InXs on ABC but we were late so we just went to church, favorite church: St. Brendan, the mass here is solemn and heart felt.. yeah kinda sleepy for ppl who didn't sleep at all mwahaha.. drove John to Irvine for the concert before going to church.. dang i won't drive tired again... i know i was awake but i could feel that i couldn't control my arms anymore.. i was swerving... so I decided to go back to Brentwood (Anaheim) to doze of for awhile and go with the chocolate gang to InXs... after going to church and filling our stomachs at THAI BBQ i went with che back to Brentwood and sleep off the night before John calls me to pick him up... 11pm: Time for driver duties hahaha.. we stopped at Denny's on our way home.. this Denny's was packed and there were not many servers.. they even had to turn down ppl coz they couldn't serve them... we came home at 1 am i think...
July 25 - Monday - Judgement day.. spazoid came back and I can't even check my emails.. that's it for me.. exciting day huh... i was doing errands all day which was great for me coz i got to get away and be outside and not hear his yelling...oh yeah mads told me she can't come to the camping/kayaking island trip... =( we'll just try it some other time... which is good news for jill coz now she can come.. yay... see you there jill... oh i just remembered.. jun picked me up and brought me to work which means i was early yay!.. and i got to see him too.. =D how sweet... hehehe... went to the gym with che.. patayan na to hahaha... i saw jun that night too... talk about love and devotion mwahaha... kilig...
July 26 - Tuesday - Spazoid's second day... I don't recall what happened in the office..hahaha i think i blocked spazoid out too much mwahaha... went to costco with ate janette, mama, tatay and che... they ran out of chicken bake.. grrrr... then on to costco to buy more fruits... ate janette is going home tomorrow... oh she gave me her bag mwehehe... =D ill post a pic here later mwahhaa... i saw jun again tonite..yihiiyy.. =) hehhee..kinilig naman daw ako d ba...
July 27 - Wednesday - I got back at spazoid today.. as usual he was screaming his heart out, screaming at cutie pie(that's what the girls on our floor call him) our salesman and i was adding stock and as far as any human being is concerned.. adding stock is not fun with someone screaming at your side... so i moved to rino's table and she was doing something else.. and he was looking for me.. i told him where i was.. and he asked what i was doing.. i told him 'you're too noisy for me...' that made him quiet hahaha... he came to where i was looking at what i was doing, i didnt look up haha.. i wanted to lol hahaha... but he got me back.. it was 130pm already and he wasnt even considering letting me have lunch.. i asked him if i can go now... he said NO.. i said why not? he laughed he said he was kidding hahaha... I can't get too comfortable I know one of this days he will find something for him to scream at me.. i'm happy right now that I go out and he screams at everyone but me.. knock on wood.. mwahhaa...
that's my 7 days in a nut shell.. yay it's almost the weekend...yay....
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