Not ready to make nice

Sometimes i think back on things that happened in my life.. some things make me laugh, some things make me cry, some things make me remember why this is such an appropriate song mwahaha...

                  

NOT READY TO MAKE NICE

-Dixie Chicks-

      

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it

I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

comments

I rarely jump to answer comments from friends but one of my friends just sent me a msg to tell me he left a comment on one of my blogs.. lo and behold.. there it was staring me in the face.. an insult to all that I was complaining about... so here I am trying to get back at him.. ey marvin.. try reading this too...=P    

I'm sorry but they don't pay for my salary, as I explained working with them is the same as forcing a mime to speak...it won't do you any good... I could care less if he sold some of our merchandise coz out of a thousand customers he's just a spec of dust...but what's nice is that my boss cares even less...

the difference with customer care and my job is that I can meet the customers and I can associate an idiot to his attitude... what irritates them more is smart answers to stupid questions... and people who talk back.. too bad i'm not stupid..

I've acquired this attitude long before these nasty phone calls and I call it my hooker attitude... hooker is short for WHO CARES... hehehe...

as it turns out to be he just wants attention.. coz last time i was talking to him i dissed him and told him i'll brb.. hahaha.. sorry... either i had something pressing to do like ebay hahaha or my mom was using the computer that time..

RUDE

Sometimes I encounter rude clients on the phone.. I want this now, I want to speak only to your boss, why hasn't someone sent someone to bring me what I want, my customer is here  and i'm gonna lose the sale if you don't send anyone, do you want me to pay you or not... these are but some of the biting remarks that come out of their mouths, is it just sometimes or most of the time and I just let them pass 'coz I've been there, heard that, done that, done nothing and could do nothing about it... but in rare occassions I encouter the ubber rude people.. here's how the conversation went for 2 days.. i don't know where they got their tact and manners but they are surely lacking of it...

Phone conversation 1: - Tuesday

I was doing something when my nice boss interrupted me to answer a line that is on hold.. Joe put him on hold coz he had to meet his friend at the door.. I had no idea what their conversation was.. I was just trying to help..

Ollie: Hi is there anything I can help you with?

Rude guy: Why are you doing this to  me, I am not talking to you, I want Joe he was taking care of me...

O: I'm sorry but Joe stepped outside to talk to someone...

RG: I don't know why I need to talk to you, I don't want to talk to you, I need the stuff right now coz my customer is here waiting..

O: I'm just trying to help you coz everyone's on the phone and Joe put you on hold. I saw the light was blinking so I thought I could help you. Joe can't help you right now. If you don't want to talk to me you have to hold 'coz he's not here.

RG: let me talk to your boss.. LET ME TALK TO YOUR BOSS...

O: ok just hold on... who's this...

RG: I WANT TO TALK TO YOUR BOSS...

O: who will I say this is...

RG: Johnny...(yeah like I should know you.. you don't even buy anything from us..)

After this I didn't tell my boss he was on the line.. fy for screwing with my almost perfect day... hah.. he disconnected the line after 2-3 minutes.. I asked Joe who the idiot was.. he was from Gold Empire.. and my boss said it was right that I answered him back..yeah you're a rude a$$.. try to learn some phone manners... then my boss calls him and he harrasses my boss why we haven't sent him the stuff yet.. my boss told him you should have sent someone if you're really in a hurry... at least my boss said I was right.. for once.. hahaha...


Phone conversation 2: - Wednesday


It was time for me to go home but hey the phone's ringing again and yes I answered it..

O: ____ Good Afternoon!

Idiot Guy: Hi I saw your stuff on the internet.

O: Do you have a lot number?

IG: what lot number I don't have one..

O: Ok please hold let me find it for you.. I couldn't find it so I was taking longer..

IG: Hello I don't think you know what you're doing.

O: Excuse me you didn't have a lot number so it's taking longer for me to look for it. If you can tell me the lot number it's be easier.

IG: Just transfer me to a guy. I don't talk with girls.

O: My boss can't talk to you right now coz he's on the phone. If you want him just hold.

I put him on hold and I didn't tell my boss he was there... serves you right.. just hold there.. I think he was on hold for the next 5 minutes.. and I think he was calling long distance.. when finally my boss got off the other line he was gone too.. but he called back.. my boss was trying to transfer the phone to Joe coz hes getting irritated that IG didn't know what he wanted.. and I told the people there.. oh that's the idiot who said he doesn't think I know what I'm doing and that he doesn't talk with girls.. so my boss got pissed off and told IG to call back when he know's the lot number of what he was looking for.. nice...

I think I know how this goes now.. Nobody can be mad at me and shout at me or be mean to me except my boss.. which is ok for me coz i let his lectures go from one ear out the other hahaha... but it's nice for once he's standing up for me.. or is he.. hmmm...

too much for this day...

and i thought I'd get off from all the stress coz it's sat... i thought wrong.. sigh...

I don't think it ever happened before that I hated someone I haven't met before.. yes I hate you... before you came everything was ok.. families weren't in turmoil.. I don't believe any ounce of your innocent crap.. people from the provinces are smarter than you.. where did you say u grew up at again.. up there in the mountains where there are no people and there are no social skills.. all that crap you were feeding people around you are all lies.. LIAR... what I hate most about this is that people who shouldn't be affected with your money grubbing antics are not only affected but they are also upset... i hate you.. if ever i'll meet you i have a few words for you so help me don't leave me with this bitch alone.. covering up ur ass just so you can move to a much higher paying job is better than telling people the truth.. yes.. being called sweetie in this business doesn't mean harassment.. at least not where I work at.. and YOU ARE NOT THAT PRETTY FOR THE MEN IN THE BLDG TO BE OGLING AND SEXUALLY HARASSING YOU..as you are saying just to get out of your job.. YOU JUST HAVE A DIRTY MIND.. PERV... and don't you know when to gauge when you're being harassed or ppl are just being polite.. save the sob story for your mom.. and stop including us with your freaking shit... get as far as possible from me coz not only will I claw your eyes out when you piss me off again I tell everyone in the bldg you made ur stories up.. yes that's how much I hate you.. good thing I haven't met you yet and I don't have to be nice to you when I see you in downtown... up yours as they say.. i hope you don't find another job in downtown... at the rate you're going by the end of the year everyone will be wary of taking you into their office.. go study.. i'll bet anyone that before the year ends you're gonna go home... if you survive the winter here i'll bury u in the snow... mwahhaa.. yuck I sound mean.. I hate how you bring out the bitch in me... ugh

It's such a disappointment that people who come to downtown are not as dedicated as they were 5 years ago when they come into the business... all they think of is the money when they don't even know anything and common phone call courtesy and conversation has to become a task.. I think flips here in downtown paved the way too much for everyone.. everybody likes us to work for them.. yes we have varying prices but if you don't know anything stop demanding higher wages than employess who have been there longer.. life is too easy for these money grubbing fools... it's such a pity that ppl who need jobs might not get in anymore coz of the bitch in the paragraph above and ppl who ask for more money than they can give service...    

when i get pissed of I hear songs in my head.. ha ha i don't have voices.. not yet mwahaha... so here goes..

Better Off Without You - Tyrone Wells

Almost don't remember
The way it used to be
Where you used to whisper
You belonged to me
You belonged to me

Chorus:
I'm better off without you
Except for when I sleep
I'm better off without you
Besides the time I breath
I keep telling myself
Maybe one day I'll believe
That I’m better off without you
And I'd never think about you
I'm better off without you

I saw you on the sidewalk
And I'd thought I caught your eye
And I wondered if you loved him
As I watched you both walk by
As I watched you just walk by

(Chorus)

Looking at a photograph of you, you’re laughing
I'm standing by your side
I remember you were wearing my favorite perfume
How could you forget about the time you told me I was your only joy
Now when you want to smile,
What do you do, what do you do

(Chorus)

"Ain't Gonna Beg" - Fantasia Barrino

[Fantasia (talk):]
I mean i'm not gon' beg you
I see, i see you just ain't ain't actin right
It's ok


[Verse 1:]
Everytime i need someone to be there when i had me one of them crazy days (i ain't gon' beg you)
Everytime i want someone to treat like they always said they were gon' treat like (i ain't gon' beg you)


[Hook:]
Because i let you slide before
But i see you ain't gon' learn
Since you like to play with fire then imma let us burn
(boy you) ain't nothin'
(gon' miss) my lovin'
And last time was the last time so i'm through with you

[Chorus:]
No i ain't gon' beg you no more
I'm sick and tired of waitin' don't know what i'm waitin' for
Cause you know you don't treat me like you should
When you know i'm the coolest thing up out the hood
No i ain't gon' you no more
And if you not down down with this then baby theres a door
I'm usually not the type to just lay it down and quit
But alot men would get with it
So i ain't gon' beg you no more

[Verse 2:]
Everytime i wanna be wined and dined
Takin out on a friday night to spend a little time (i ain't gon' beg you)
And everytime i need some huggin' and some lovin' but it's late and i don't get nothin'
(i ain't gon' beg you)

[Hook:]

[Chorus:]

(oooo) said i'm through with being patient i ain't here for you just to come and
(take it when you wanna take it)
You took it all for granted (all that good love and all that freaky stuff)
Is all gon'
(ooo... if thats how you is) Then let me tell you this
(take your lame-o tired excuses somewhere eles) somewhere eles
Cause you thinkin i don't wanna hear it (you thinkin i don't wanna hear it)
Stay away i don't wanna get near it
Cause boy i'm movin not only that...

[Chorus]

Ain't gon' beg you to love me
Ain't gon' beg you to hold me
Ain't gon' you to pick up and take me out
I ain't gon' beg you to ice me
Ain't gon' you to want me
Ain't gon' to do things a real man about
I'm tired I'm tired I'm tired

But then again all I have to do is pop in the 2002 North American Tour of the De La Salle Chorale and everything calms down.. yes I think of mike and I'm ok.. no use bothering u with my trivial stuff.. you have enough on ur plate as it is... Love you mike...

Give me Strength

Lately I have been feeling like I want to strangle people.. Either they don't hear me or they don't listen... by now I should have acquired the 'whatever, I don't care' attitude that people have in this crazy place I work at but always when I least expect it they tend to pull at my strings and push all my buttons... all this pent up anger and frustration has been giving me headaches. Tylenol and Advil doesn't seem to work anymore so what do I do.. I pray.. that the Lord will give me enough strength to get through each day without breaking down... to say things I might regret in the future or just not to scream at anyone because of their incompetence.. sometimes I don't know if people are really dumb when sometimes they show promise of being responsible or they're playing dumb so I do their work for them.. my boss isn't here yet I feel like there's a 10lb weight sitting on my chest already.. they start as early as 9:30am... if you think about it if there's anyone to piss me off and get me angry it should be my boss coz at least he pays for me to do my job.. geez they can't even wait for him to get here... they start early and act like nothing happened... argh.. anyway while I was praying for strength I was looking for this song that goes like ' give me strength oh Lord, come and make me whole...' I didnt find it I found a better song.. something that used to inspire me when I was in HIgh School.. I loved it when we sang this during the mass.. so now as I go through this crazy day I hope this song can help me carry on...




LEAD ME LORD

Lead me Lord, lead me by the hand
And make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain
That life may bring
There's no other hope
That I can lean upon
Lead me Lord Lead me all my life
Walk by me, walk by me across
The lonely road that I may face
Take my arms and let your hadn
Show me the way
Show the way to live inside your heart
All my days, all my life

Refrain: You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay
By Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord
       
Lead me Lord Even though at times
I'd rather go alone my way
Help me take the right direction
Take Your road Lead me Lord
And never leave my side
All my days
All my life
You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay By Your guiding love
All through my life
All through my days Lead me, O Lord Lead me Lord