lola en

my grandma died yesterday and I can't even be there to say goodbye... I love you lola I wish I could have seen you one last time..

They told me I could probably go home in december.. my brother is there but the first idea that popped into my head was.. what jeepneys do I ride to get to palmera 3.. I think I still remember..

One particular scene I always remember when I used to bother them at their house when they still lived beside our house was seeing my grandma brush her nice thick healthy hair.. I told her.. lola ang ganda naman ng buhok mo(grandma your hair looks nice).. and she answers syempre maganda kasi ako(of course coz I'm beautiful).. I love it when she laughs.. she laughs so hard sometimes it makes her cough.. she is one of those people whom whenever you talk to you can feel their sincerity... I love seeing her at reunions.. coz not like every other aunt or grandma that asks you why you don't have a bf or why you're not married yet she does the opposite.. o wag ka muna magb-bf bata ka pa.. wag ka muna mag-aasawa... kamusta ka na.. nami-miss na kita.. you can always feel from what she says that she's proud of you...

I love it when I had vacations at their new house... she used to tell me stories about my dad when he was a kid.. how she'd steal my dad from his mom... how she'd fight them saying.. bakit nyo pinagdadamot si boy.. that's the way she talked to my dad when he didn't want me to stay at their house.. she was very funny.. she loved hearing stories from where we were but I don't know how she does it but it doesn't sound like gossip when either she tells it or when she weasles it out out of people.. like me hehehe... she has a way of talking to people and making them feel welcome and at ease.. ey but she has a nasty bite too.. she can flick off people when she needs to... i always thought she was too thin or too frail.. i saw her get mad once.. I forgot what the reason was but I was thinking... wow..  

She is ony mighty lady.. I remember her taking care of my great grandma who lived until she was 98(?)... I wish she lived long enough for me to see her again though... I miss her.. I wasn't able to talk much with her but it was always fun when we did.. I wish I could have gone home before she died..

I miss you lola.. I love you...