07/30/2014 About time

I just saw the movie 'about time' and it made me think.

Do I want to travel back in time?

I do.

For those who do not know me I'm a brooder if there ever was such a word, I brood about stupid things I've done during the day, stuff I didn't say right, or didn't have the courage to say. Sometimes my stupid mind brings me back to scenes from long ago, stuff that I should have forgotten by now. Stuff that has no business in my real life.

I don't think I was always like this, I always thought of myself as a fairly happy person with a positive outlook in life. I don't think I would concentrate on thinking too much. I know I was always wired up thinking of my next trip or adventure. These days though I've been thinking more and brooding more. Maybe it's because finally I caught up with life. I used to feel that I had things I needed to do all the time and that I never had enough time to do them. Maybe that's what stopped me from brooding too much but these days I find myself more relaxed but this opens the floodgates to all my memories. That is why I like the idea of travelling through time.

I told my husband if I could go back in time I would have love to have met him sooner, not only to spend more time with but I wish he met the Ollie that wasn't sick most days with who knows what, the Ollie that could stay up late everyday and still go to work early feeling like a rock star, the Ollie that didn't care about the past too much and what could have beens. The Ollie that had the energy to go do things.

I would love to have the opportunity to see what could have happened if I unmet some people, or maybe met some people at a different point or part of my life. I don't think I would have created a big rift but then again in the movie it showed that whatever happened, if it was meant to be it was meant to be, which means in terms of meeting my awesome friends I would have met them regardless of how things happen, which is still a double edged sword because it also means I would have met the people I wanted to forget no matter what. Drats!  Maybe I could just avoid them. Hahaha...

Thing is though my husband said he was very different when he was younger and he didn't know if I could have handled him, I told him maybe I could have matched him, we don't know.

It makes me realize that there really is a reason why we meet people at the time we meet them. Because they serve a purpose, but I still would love to be able to change some small things if I could.

I loved the movie and I would recommend it to everybody.